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their origins： fuck them out； sweat himself clean。 The thought forted him。 When he dozed again； and the memories returned； he didn't fight them； knowing he had a means of scouring them from his system once he got back to England。
Now he sat in front of the painting in four modes and flipped through his address book looking for a partner for the night。 He made a few calls but couldn't have chosen a worse time to be setting up a casual liaison！ Husbands were home； family gatherings were in the offing。 He was out of season。
He did eventually speak to Klein； who after some persuasion accepted his apologies and then went on to tell him there was to be a party at Taylor and Clem's house the following day； and he was sure Gentle would be wele if he had no other plans。
〃Everyone says it'll be Taylor's last；〃 Chester said。 〃I know he'd like to see you。〃
〃I supppse I should go； then；〃 Gentle said。
〃You should。 He's very sick。 He's had pneumonia； and now cancer。 He was always very fond of you； you know。〃
The association of ideas made fondness for Gentle sound like another disease； but he didn't ment on it； merely made arrangements to pick up Klein the following evening； and put down the phone； plunged into a deeper trough than ever。 He'd known Taylor had the plague but hadn't realized people were counting the days to his demise。 Such grim times。 Everywhere he looked things were ing apart。 There seemed to be only darkness ahead； full of blurred shapes and pitiful glances。 The Age of Pie 'oh' pah； perhaps。 The time of the assassin。
He didn't sleep； despite being tired； but sat up into the small hours with an object of study that he'd previously dismissed as fanciful nonsense： Chant's final letter。 When he'd first read it； on the plane to New York； it had seemed a ludicrous outpouring。 But there had been strange times since then； and they'd put Gentle in an apter mood for this study。 Pages that had seemed worthless a few days before were now pored over； in the hope they'd yield some clue； encoded in the fanciful excesses of Chant's idiosyncratic and ill…punctuated prose； that would lead him to some fresh prehension of the times and their movers。 Whose god； for instance； was this Hapexamendios that Chant exhorted Estabrook to pray to and praise？ He came trailing synonyms： the Unbeheld； the Aboriginal； the Wanderer。 And what was the greater plan that Chant hoped in his final hours he was a part of？
I AM ready for death in this DOMINION； he'd written； if I know that the Unbeheld has used me as His INSTRUMENT。 All praise to HAPEXAMENDIOS。 For He was in the Place of the Succulent Rock and left His children to SUFFER here； and I have suffered here and AM DONE with suffering。
That at least was true。 The man had known his death was imminent； which suggested he'd known his murderer too。 Was it Pie 'oh' pah he'd been expecting？ It seemed not。 The assassin was referred to； but not as Chant's executioner。 Indeed； in his first reading of the letter Gentle hadn't even realized it was Pie 'oh' pah who was being spoken of in this passage。 But on this rereading it was pletely apparent。
You have made a covenant with a RARE thing in this DOMINION or any other； and I do not know if this death nearly upon me is my punishment or my reward for my agency in that。 But be circumspect in all your dealings with it； for such power is capricious； being a stew of kinds and possibilities； no UTTER thing； in any part of its nature； but pavonine and prismatic； an apostate to its core。
1 was never the friend of this power…it has only ADORERS AND UNDOERS…but it trusted me as its representative and I have done it as much harm in these dealings as I have you。 More； I think； for it is a lonely thing； and suffers in this DOMINION as I have。 You have friends who know you for the man you are and do not have to conceal your TRUE NATURE。 Cling to them； and their love for you； for the Place of the Succulent Rock is about to shake and tremble； and in such a time all a soul has is the pany of its loving like。 I say this having lived in such a time； and am GLAD that if such is ing upon the FIFTH DOMINION again； I will be dead； and my face turned to the glory of the UNBEHELD。
All praise to HAPEXAMENDIOS。
And to you sir； in this moment； I offer my contrition and my prayers。
There was a little more； but both handwriting and the sentence structure deteriorated rapidly thereafter； as though Chant had panicked and scrawled the rest while putting on his coat。 The more coherent passages contained enough hints to keep Gentle from sleep； however。。 The descriptions of Pie 'oh' pah were particularly alarming：
〃a RARE thing。 。 。 a stew of kinds and possibilities。〃
How was that to be interpreted； except as a verification of what Gentle's senses had glimpsed in New York？ If so； what was this creature that had stood before him； naked and singular； but concealed multitudes； this power Chant had said possessed no friends （it has only ADORERS and UNDOERS； he'd written） and had been done as much harm in these dealings （again； Chant's words） as Es…tabrook； to whom Chant had offered his contrition and his prayers？ Not human； for certain。 Not born of any tribe or nation Gentle was familiar with。 He read the letter over and over again； and with each rereading the possibility of belief crept closer。 He felt its proximity。 It was fresh from the margins of that land he'd first suspected in New York。 The thought of being there had made him fearful then。 But it no longer did； perhaps because it was Christmas morning； and time for something miraculous to appear and change the world。
The closer they crept…both morning and belief…the more he regretted shunning the assassin when it had so plainly wanted his pany。 He had no clues to its mystery but those contained in Chant's letter； and after a hundred readings they were exhausted。 He wanted more。 The only other source was his memory of the creature's jigsaw face； and； knowing his propensity for forgetting； they'd start to fade all too soon。 He had to set them down！ That was the priority now： to set the vision down before it slipped away！
He threw the letter aside and went to stare at his Supper at Emmaus。 Was any of those styles capable of capturing what he'd seen？ He doubted it。 He'd have to invent a new mode。 Fired up by that ambition； he turned the Supper on end and began to squeeze burnt umber directly onto the canvas； spreading it with a palette knife until the scene beneath was pletely obscured。 In its place was now a dark ground； into which he started to gouge the outline of a figure。 He had never studied anatomy very closely。 The male body was of little aesthetic interest to him； and the female was so mutable； so much a function of its own motion； or that of light across it； that all static representation seemed to him doomed from the outset。 But he wanted to represent a protean form now； however impossible； wanted to find a way to fix what he'd seen at the door of his hotel room； when Pie 'oh' pah's many faces had been shuffled in front of him like cards in an illusionist's deck。 If he could fix that sight； or even begin to do so； he might yet find a way of controlling the thing that had e to haunt him。
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