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a degree or two above a low drone。 It would be nice to believe he had performed heroically； but he supposed it was only that escape thing again； because the pain had been really dreadful。 When the healing process finally did begin； he thought the 〃phantom itch〃 of the foot which was no longer there was even worse than the pain。 It was the arch of the missing foot which bothered him the most。 He awoke time after time in the middle of the night using the big toe of his right foot to scratch thin air four inches below the place where； on that side； his body now ended。
But he had gone on working just the same。
It wasn't until after the thumbectomy； and that bizarre birthday cake like a left…over prop from Whatever Happened to Baby Jane； that the balls of crumpled…up paper had begun to proliferate in the wastebasket again。 Lose a foot； almost die； go on working。 Lose a thumb and run into some kind of weird trouble。 Wasn't it supposed to be the other way around？
Well； there was the fever … he had…spent a week in bed with that。 But it was pretty minor…league stuff； the highest his temperature had ever gone was 100。7； and that wasn't exactly the stuff of which high melodrama was made。 The fever had probably been caused more by his general run… down condition than any specific infection； and an oogy old fever was no problem for Annie； among her other souvenirs； Annie had Keflex and Ampicillin up the old kazoo。 She dosed him and he got better 。 。 。 as better as it was possible to get under such bizarre circumstances； at any rate。 But something was wrong。 He seemed to have lost some vital ingredient； and the mix had bee a lot less potent as a result。 He tried to blame it on the missing n； but he'd had that to contend with before； and； really； what was a missing n pared to a missing foot and now； as an extra added attraction； a missing thumb？
Whatever the reason； something had disturbed the dream； something was whittling away the circumference of that hole in the paper through which he saw。 Once … he would have sworn it was so … that hole had been as big as the bore of the Lincoln Tunnel。 Now it was no more than the size of a knothole which a sidewalk superintendent might stoop to snoop through on an interesting piece of building construction。 You had to peer and crane to see anything at all； and more often than not the really important things happened outside your field of vision 。 。 。 not surprising； considering the field of vision was so small。
In practical terms； what had happened following the thumbectomy and ensuing bout of fever was obvious。 The language of the book had grown florid and overblown again … it was not self…parody yet； not quite； but it was floating steadily in that direction and he seemed helpless to stop it。 Continuity lapses had begun to proliferate with the stealth of rats breeding in cellar corners： for a space of thirty pages； the Baron had bee the Viscount from Misery's Quest。 He'd had to go back and tear that all out。
It doesn't matter； Paul； he told himself again and again in those last few days before the Royal coughed up first its t and then its e； the damned thing is almost done。 So it was。 Working on it was torture； and finishing it was going to mean the end of his life。 That the latter had begun to look slightly more attractive than the former said all that probably needed to be said about the worsening state of his body； mind； and spirit。 And the book moved on in spite of everything； seemingly independent of them。 The continuity drops were annoying but minor。 He was having more problems with the actual make…believe than he ever had before … the game of Can You？ had bee a labored exercise rather than simple good fun。 Yet the book had continued to roll in spite of all the terrible things Annie had subjected him to； and he could bitch about how something … his guts； maybe … had run out of him along with the half…pint or so of blood he'd lost when she took his thumb； but it was still a goddam good yarn； the best Misery novel by far。 The plot was melodramatic but well constructed； in its own modest way quite amusing。 If it were ever to be published in something other than the severely limited （first printing： one copy） Annie Wilkes Edition； he guessed it might sell like a mad bastard。 Yeah； he supposed he would get through it； if the goddam typewriter held together。
You were supposed to be so tough； he had thought once； after one of his pulsive lifting exercises。 His thin arms were trembling； the stump of his thumb aching feverishly； his forehead covered with a thin oil of sweat。 You were the tough young gunsel looking to make a rep off the tired old turd of a sheriff； right？ Only you've already thrown one key and I see the way some of the others … the t； the e； and the g； for instance； are starting to look funny 。 。 。 sometimes leaning one way； sometimes leaning the other； sometimes riding a little high on the line； sometimes dipping a little low。 I think maybe the tired old turd is going to win this one； my friend。 I think maybe the tired old turd is going to beat you to death 。 。 。 and it could be that the bitch knew it。 Could be that's why she took my left thumb。 Like the saying goes； she may be crazy； but she sure ain't dumb。
He looked at the typewriter with tired intensity。
Go on。 Go on and break。 I'll finish anyway。 If she wants to get me a replacement； I'll thank her kindly； but if she doesn't I'll finish on the goddam legal pads The one thing I won't do is scream。
I won't scream。
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I won't scream！
He sat at the window； totally awake now； totally aware that the police car he was seeing in Annie's driveway was as real as his left foot had once been。
Scream！ Goddammit； scream！
He wanted to； but the dictum was too strong … just too strong。 He couldn't even open his mouth。 He tried and saw the brownish droplets of Betadine flying from the blade of the electric knife。 He tried and heard the squeal of axe against bone； the soft flump as the match in her hand lit the Bernz…O…matiC。
He tried to open his mouth and couldn't。
Tried to raise his hands。 Couldn't。
A horrible moaning sound passed between his closed lips and his hands made light； haphazard drumming sounds on either side of the Royal； but that was all he could do； all the control of his destiny he could seem to take。 Nothing which had gone before … except perhaps for the moment when he had realized that； although his left leg was moving； his left foot was staying put … was as terrible as the hell of this immobility。 In real time it did not last long； perhaps five seconds and surely no longer than ten。 But inside Paul Sheldon's head it seemed to go on for years。
There； within plain sight； was salvation： all he had to do was break the window and the dog…lock the bitch had put on his tongue and scream Help me； help me； save me from Annie！ Save me from the goddess！
At the same time another voice was screaming： I'll be good； Annie！ I won't scream！ I'll be good； I'll be good for goddess〃 sake！ I promise not to scream； just don't chop off any more of me！ Had he known； before this had he really known how badly she had cowed him； or how much of his essential self … the liver