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dor of obsession。
There were three doors in the room； two to the left and one straight ahead； between the refrigerator and the pantry alcove。
He went to those on the left first。 One was the kitchen closet … he knew that even before he saw the coats； hats； scarves； and boots。 The brief； yapping squeak of the hinges was enough to tell him。 The other was the one Annie used to go out。 And here was another police…bar and two more Kreigs。 Roydmans； stay out。 Paul； stay in。
He imagined her laughing。
〃You fucking bitch！〃 He struck his fist against the side of the door。 It hurt； and he pressed the side of his hand against his mouth。 He hated the sting of tears； the momentary doubling of his vision when he blinked； but there was no way he could stop it。 The panic was yammering more loudly now； asking what was he going to do； what was he going to do； for Christ's sake； this might be his last chance … What I'm going to do first is a thorough job of checking this situation out； he told himself grimly。 If you can stay cool for just awhile longer； that is。 Think you can do that； chickenshit？
He wiped his eyes … crying was not going to get him out； of this … and looked out through the window which made up the top half of the door。 It wasn't really just one window but sixteen small panes。 He could break the glass in each； but he would have to bust the lathes； too； and that might take hours without a saw … they looked strong。 And what then？ A kamikaze dive out onto the back porch？ A great idea。 Maybe he could break his back； and that would take his mind off his legs for awhile。 And it wouldn't take long； lying out there in the pelting rain before he died of exposure。 That would take care of the whole rotten business。
No way。 No fucking way。 Maybe I'm going to punch out； but I swear to God I'm not going to do it until I get a chance to show my number…one fan just how much I've enjoyed getting to know her。 And that isn't just a promise … that's a sacred vow。
The idea of paying Annie back did more to still his panic than any amount of self…scolding had done。 A little calmer； he flicked the switch beside the locked door。 It turned on an outside light； which came in handy … the last of the daylight had drained away during the time since he had left his room。 Annie's driveway was flooded； and her yard was a quagmire of mud； standing water； and gobbets of melting snow。 By positioning his wheelchair all the way to the left of the door； he could for the first time see the road which ran by her place； although it was really no big deal … two…lane blacktop between decaying snowbanks； shiny as sealskin and awash with rainwater and snowmelt。
Maybe she locked the doors to keep the Roydmans out； but she sure didn't need to lock them to keep me in。 If I got out there in this wheelchair； I'd be bogged to the hubcaps in five seconds。 You're not going anywhere； Paul。 Not tonight and probably not for weeks … they'll be a month into the baseball season before the ground firms up enough for you to get out to the road in this wheelchair。 Unless you want to crash through a window and crawl。
No … he didn't want to do that。 It was too easy to imagine how his shattered bones would feel after ten or fifteen minutes of wriggling through cold puddles and melting snow； like a dying tadpole。 And even supposing he could make it out to the road； what were his chances of flagging down a car？ The only two he'd ever heard out here； other than Old Bessie； had been El Rancho Grande's Bel Air and the car which had scared the life out of him passing the house on the first occasion he had escaped his 〃guest…room〃。
He turned off the outside light and rolled across to the； other door； the one between the refrigerator and the pantry。 There were three locks on this one as well； and it didn't even open on the outside … or at least not directly。 There was another light…switch beside this door。 Paul flicked it and saw a neat shed addition which ran the length of the house on its windward side。 At one end was a woodpile and a chopping block with an axe buried in it。 At the other was a work…table and tools hung on pegs。 To its left there was another door。 The bulb out there wasn't terribly bright； but it was bright enough for him to see another police bolt and another two Kreig locks on that door as well。
The Roydmans 。 。 。 everybody 。 。 。 all out to get me 。 。 。
〃I don't know about them；〃 he said to the empty kitchen； 〃but I sure am。〃 Giving up on the doors； he rolled into the pantry。 Before he looked at the food stored on the shelves； he looked at the matches。 There were two cartons of paper book matches and at least two dozen boxes of Diamond Blue Tips； neatly stacked up。
For a moment he considered simply lighting the place on fire； began to reject the idea as the most ridiculous yet； and then saw something which made him reconsider it briefly。 In here was yet another door； and this one had no locks on it。
He opened it and saw a set of steep； rickety stairs pitching and yawing their way into the cellar。 An almost vicious smell of dampness and rotting vegetables rose from the dark。 He heard low squeaking sounds and thought of her saying： They e into the cellar when it rains。 I put down traps。 I have to。
He slammed the door shut in a hurry。 A drop of sweat trickled down from his temple and ran； stinging； into the corner of his right eye。 He knuckled it away。 Knowing that door must lead to the cellar and seeing that there were no locks on it had made the idea of torching the place seem momentarily more rational … he could maybe shelter there。 But the stairs were too steep； the possibility of being burned alive if Annie's flaming house collapsed into the cellar…hole before the Sidewinder fire engines could get here was too real； and the rats down there 。 。 。 the sound of the rats was somehow the worst。
How its heart beats！ How it struggles to get away！ As we do； Paul。 As we do。
〃Africa；〃 Paul said； and didn't hear himself say it。 He began to look at the cans and bags of food in the pantry； trying to assess what he could take with the least chance of raising her suspicions next time she came out here。 Part of him understood exactly what this assessment meant： he had given up the idea of escape。
Only for the time being； his troubled mind protested。
No； a deeper voice responded implacably。 Forever； Paul。 Forever。
〃I will never give up；〃 he whispered。 〃Do you hear me？ Never。〃 Oh no？ the voice of the cynic whispered sardonically。 Well 。 。 。 we'll see； won't we？
Yes。 They would see。
17
Annie's larder looked more like a survivalist's bomb shelter than a pantry。 He guessed that some of this hoarding was a simple nod to the realities of her situation： she was a woman alone living in the high country； where a person might reasonably expect to spend a certain period … maybe only a day； but sometimes as long as a week or even two … cut off from the rest of the world。 Probably even those cockadoodie Roydmans had a pantry that would make a homeowner from another part of the country raise his or her brows 。 。 。 but he doubted if the cockadoodie Roydmans or anyone else up here had anything which came close to what he was now looking at