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〃You are right… you are all of you right。 I was a fool… a dreamer。 Man
belongs to reality； and not to fancy。〃
With songs and with sounding guitars the young people returned
that evening from the tavern； through the narrow streets； the two
glowing carnations； daughters of the Campagna； went with them。
In Angelo's room； among a litter of colored sketches （studies） and
glowing pictures； the voices sounded mellower； but not less merrily。
On the ground lay many a sketch that resembled the daughters of the
Campagna； in their fresh； hearty comeliness； but the two originals
were far handsomer than their portraits。 All the burners of the
six…armed lamp flared and flamed； and the human flamed up from within；
and appeared in the glare as if it were divine。
〃Apollo！ Jupiter！ I feel myself raised to our heaven… to your
glory！ I feel as if the blossom of life were unfolding itself in my
veins at this moment！〃
Yes； the blossom unfolded itself； and then burst and fell； and
an evil vapor arose from it； blinding the sight； leading astray the
fancy； the firework of the senses went out； and it became dark。
He was again in his own room。 There he sat down on his bed and
collected his thoughts。
〃Fie on thee！〃 these were the words that sounded out of his
mouth from the depths of his heart。 〃Wretched man； go； begone！〃 And
a deep painful sigh burst from his bosom。
〃Away！ begone！〃 These； her words； the words of the living
Psyche； echoed through his heart； escaped from his lips。 He buried his
head in the pillows； his thoughts grew confused； and he fell asleep。
In the morning dawn he started up； and collected his thoughts
anew。 What had happened？ Had all the past been a dream？ The visit to
her； the feast at the tavern； the evening with the purple carnations
of the Campagna？ No； it was all real… a reality he had never before
experienced。
In the purple air gleamed the bright Star； and its beams fell upon
him and upon the marble Psyche。 He trembled as he looked at that
picture of immortality； and his glance seemed impure to him。 He
threw the cloth over the statue； and then touched it once more to
unveil the form… but he was not able to look again at his own work。
Gloomy； quiet； absorbed in his own thoughts； he sat there
through the long day； he heard nothing of what was going on around
him； and no man guessed what was passing in this human soul。
And days and weeks went by； but the nights passed more slowly than
the days。 The flashing Star beheld him one morning as he rose； pale
and trembling with fever； from his sad couch； then he stepped
towards the statue； threw back the covering； took one long；
sorrowful gaze at his work； and then； almost sinking beneath the
burden； he dragged the statue out into the garden。 In that place was
an old dry well； now nothing but a hole。 Into this he cast the Psyche；
threw earth in above her； and covered up the spot with twigs and
nettles。
〃Away！ begone！〃 Such was the short epitaph he spoke。
The Star beheld all this from the pink morning sky； and its beam
trembled upon two great tears upon the pale feverish cheeks of the
young man； and soon it was said that he was sick unto death； and he
lay stretched upon a bed of pain。
The convent Brother Ignatius visited him as a physician and a
friend； and brought him words of comfort； of religion； and spoke to
him of the peace and happiness of the church； of the sinfulness of
man； of rest and mercy to be found in heaven。
And the words fell like warm sunbeams upon a teeming soil。 The
soil smoked and sent up clouds of mist； fantastic pictures； pictures
in which there was reality； and from these floating islands he
looked across at human life。 He found it vanity and delusion… and
vanity and delusion it had been to him。 They told him that art was a
sorcerer； betraying us to vanity and to earthly lusts； that we are
false to ourselves； unfaithful to our friends； unfaithful towards
Heaven； and that the serpent was always repeating within us； 〃Eat； and
thou shalt become as God。〃
And it appeared to him as if now； for the first time； he knew
himself； and had found the way that leads to truth and to peace。 In
the church was the light and the brightness of God… in the monk's cell
he should find the rest through which the tree of human life might
grow on into eternity。
Brother Ignatius strengthened his longings； and the
determination became firm within him。 A child of the world became a
servant of the church… the young artist renounced the world； and
retired into the cloister。
The brothers came forward affectionately to welcome him； and his
inauguration was as a Sunday feast。 Heaven seemed to him to dwell in
the sunshine of the church； and to beam upon him from the holy
pictures and from the cross。 And when； in the evening； at the sunset
hour； he stood in his little cell； and； opening the window； looked out
upon old Rome； upon the desolated temples； and the great dead
Coliseum… when he saw all this in its spring garb； when the acacias
bloomed； and the ivy was fresh； and roses burst forth everywhere；
and the citron and orange were in the height of their beauty； and
the palm trees waved their branches… then he felt a deeper emotion
than had ever yet thrilled through him。 The quiet open Campagna spread
itself forth towards the blue snow…covered mountains； which seemed
to be painted in the air； all the outlines melting into each other；
breathing peace and beauty； floating； dreaming… and all appearing like
a dream！
Yes； this world was a dream； and the dream lasts for hours； and
may return for hours； but convent life is a life of years… long years；
and many years。
From within comes much that renders men sinful and impure。 He
fully realized the truth of this。 What flames arose up in him at
times！ What a source of evil； of that which we would not； welled up
continually！ He mortified his body； but the evil came from within。
One day； after the lapse of many years； he met Angelo； who
recognized him。
〃Man！〃 exclaimed Angelo。 〃Yes； it is thou！ Art thou happy now？
Thou hast sinned against God； and cast away His boon from thee… hast
neglected thy mission in this world！ Read the parable of the intrusted
talent！ The MASTER； who spoke that parable； spoke the truth！ What hast
thou gained？ What hast thou found？ Dost thou not fashion for thyself a
religion and a dreamy life after thine own idea； as almost all do？
Suppose all this is a dream； a fair delusion！〃
〃Get thee away from me； Satan！〃 said the monk； and he quitted
Angelo。
〃There is a devil； a personal devil！ This day I have seen him！〃
said the monk to himself。 〃Once I extended a finger to him； and he
took my whole hand。 But now；〃 he sighed； 〃the evil is within me； and
it is in yonder man； but it does not bow him down； he goes abroad with
head erect； and enjoys his comfort； and I grasped at comfort in the
consolations of religion。 If it were nothing but a consolation？
Supposing everything here were； like the world I have quitted； only
a beautiful f