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hem of their cartridges and their valuables。 Taking their cartridges； their boots and their leather coats was right。 Taking the valuables was only realistic。 It only kept the anarchists from getting them。
It had seemed just and right and necessary that the men who ran were shot。 There was nothing wrong about it。 Their running was a selfishness。 The fascists had attacked and we had stopped them on that slope in the gray rocks； the scrub pines and the gorse of the Guadarrama hillsides。 We had held along the road under the bombing from the planes and the shelling when they brought their artillery up and those who were left at the end of that day had counterattacked and driven them back。 Later； when they had tried to come down on the left； sifting down between the rocks and through the trees； we had held out in the Sanitarium firing from the windows and the roof although they had passed it on both sides； and we lived through knowing what it was to be surrounded until the counterattack had cleared them back behind the road again。
In all that； in the fear that dries your mouth and your throat； in the smashed plaster dust and the sudden panic of a wall falling； collapsing in the flash and roar of a shellburst； clearing the gun； dragging those away who had been serving it； lying face downward and covered with rubble； your head behind the shield working on a stoppage； getting the broken case out； straightening the belt again； you now lying straight behind the shield； the gun searching the roadside again； you did the thing there was to do and knew that you were right。 You learned the dry…mouthed； fear…purged； purging ecstasy of battle and you fought that summer and that fall for all the poor in the world； against all tyranny； for all the things that you believed and for the new world you had been educated into。 You learned that fall； he thought； how to endure and how to ignore suffering in the long time of cold and wetness； of mud and of digging and fortifying。 And the feeling of the summer and the fall was buried deep under tiredness； sleepiness； and nervousness and discomfort。 But it was still there and all that you went through only served to validate it。 It was in those days； he thought； that you had a deep and sound and selfless pridethat would have made you a bloody bore at Gaylord's； he thought suddenly。
No； you would not have been so good at Gaylord's then； he thought。 You were too na飗e。 You were in a sort of state of grace。 But Gaylord's might not have been the way it was now at that time； either。 No； as a matter of fact； it was not that way； he told himself。 It was not that way at all。 There was not any Gaylord's then。
Karkov had told him about those days。 At that time what Russians there were had lived at the Palace Hotel。 Robert Jordan had known none of them then。 That was before the first _partizan_ groups had been formed； before he had met Kashkin or any of the others。 Kashkin had been in the north at Irun； at San Sebastian and in the abortive fighting toward Vitoria。 He had not arrived in Madrid until January and while Robert Jordan had fought at Carabanchel and at Usera in those three days when they stopped the right wing of the fascist attack on Madrid and drove the Moors and the _Tercio_ back from house to house to clear that battered suburb on the edge of the gray； sun…baked plateau and establish a line of defense along the heights that would protect that corner of the city； Karkov had been in Madrid。
Karkov was not cynical about those times either when he talked。 Those were the days they all shared when everything looked lost and each man retained now； better than any citation or decoration； the knowledge of just how he would act when everything looked lost。 The government had abandoned the city； taking all the motor cars from the ministry of war in their flight and old Miaja had to ride down to inspect his defensive positions on a bicycle。 Robert Jordan did not believe that one。 He could not see Miaja on a bicycle even in his most patriotic imagination； but Karkov said it was true。 But then he had written it for Russian papers so he probably wanted to believe it was true after writing it。
But there was another story that Karkov had not written。 He had three wounded Russians in the Palace Hotel for whom he was responsible。 They were two tank drivers and a flyer who were too bad to be moved； and since； at that time； it was of the greatest importance that there should be no evidence of any Russian intervention to justify an open intervention by the fascists； it was Karkov's responsibility that these wounded should not fall into the hands of the fascists in case the city should be abandoned。
In the event the city should be abandoned； Karkov was to poison them to destroy all evidence of their identity before leaving the Palace Hotel。 No one could prove from the bodies of three wounded men； one with three bullet wounds in his abdomen； one with his jaw shot away and his vocal cords exposed； one with his femur smashed to bits by a bullet and his hands and face so badly burned that his face was just an eyelashless； eyebrowless； hairless blister that they were Russians。 No one could tell from the bodies of these wounded men he would leave in beds at the Palace； that they were Russians。 Nothing proved a naked dead man was a Russian。 Your nationality and your politics did not show when you were dead。
Robert Jordan had asked Karkov how he felt about the necessity of performing this act and Karkov had said that he had not looked forward to it。 〃How were you going to do it？〃 Robert Jordan had asked him and had added； 〃You know it isn't so simple just suddenly to poison people。〃 And Karkov had said； 〃Oh； yes； it is when you carry it always for your own use。〃 Then he had opened his cigarette case and showed Robert Jordan what he carried in one side of it。
〃But the first thing anybody would do if they took you prisoner would be to take your cigarette case；〃 Robert Jordan had objected。 〃They would have your hands up。〃
〃But I have a little more here；〃 Karkov had grinned and showed the lapel of his jacket。 〃You simply put the lapel in your mouth like this and bite it and swallow。〃
〃That's much better；〃 Robert Jordan had said。 〃Tell me； does it smell like bitter almonds the way it always does in detective stories？〃
〃I don't know；〃 Karkov said delightedly。 〃I have never smelled it。 Should we break a little tube and smell it？〃
〃Better keep it。〃
〃Yes；〃 Karkov said and put the cigarette case away。 〃I am not a defeatist； you understand； but it is always possible that such serious times might come again and you cannot get this anywhere。 Have you seen the communiqu椤rom the C髍doba front？ It is very beautiful。 It is now my favorite among all the communiqu閟。〃
〃What did it say？〃 Robert Jordan had come to Madrid from the C髍doban Front and he had the sudden stiffening that comes when some one jokes about a thing which you yourself may joke about but which they may not。 〃Tell me？〃
〃_Nuestra gloriosa tropa siga avanzando sin perder ni una sola palma de terreno_；〃 Karkov said in his strange Spanish。
〃It didn't really say that；〃 Robert Jordan doubted。
〃Our glorious troops continue to advance without losing a foot of