按键盘上方向键 ← 或 → 可快速上下翻页，按键盘上的 Enter 键可回到本书目录页，按键盘上方向键 ↑ 可回到本页顶部！
————未阅读完？加入书签已便下次继续阅读！
y； 'Walk over the edge；' you would fully expect to fall to the ground。 But what if you didn't？ It is six in the morning； time for sunrise； but when you go outside； there is no sun。
〃All these are answers to what I was given up there in the space between the stars。 But they are only partial answers。〃 He stirred beside her。 〃If the universe is vast； then the inculcation of ideas is even more vast。 And the only thing that is infinite is the inception of 'reality。' Because reality enpasses even time。 Reality is so unimaginably huge； so pervasive； that it defies even the dictates of time。''
Irina pondered this for several minutes。 Then she said； 〃In an odd way； you're a refugee； aren't you？ Something happened to you up there。 As if you stepped through a doorway into a new reality； and now you no longer belong here。〃
Odysseus said； ''That's it precisely！'' Something that had been hidden or absent before had e into his face； softening it； giving it more of a human scale； instead of the massive intensity of a fifty…foot…high image。
I shouldn't be understanding this； Irina thought。 But I do。 Isn't my own sense of a changed reality what's at the heart of my discontent？ I am； like Odysseus； a displaced person； living in one reality； while inside being part of another。 It all makes so much sense； although I doubt if I could say why to an outside observer。 She shivered； thinking； I hope we are alone here。 What would anyone else make of this discussion？ Probably that we were both mad as czars。
There were tears in Odysseus's eyes。 〃You can't know how I despaired of ever finding someone who would understand。'' He kissed her cheeks； her eyes； her lips。 He laughed。 ''And to think it's Volkov himself who's provided me with my salvation。〃
Irina； who had begun to shiver when he had touched her； now quaked beneath his kisses。 She felt consumed with fire； not only in her body； but in her mind as well。 It was as if the line of munication they had together threaded had now sewed their souls into one bined whole。
〃Space is a harsh mistress；〃 Odysseus said。 Irina could feel his words as well as hear them。 〃It draws you like a magnet； a siren； until you have no choice but to open up your soul to it。 And then 。 。 。〃 He put his head into her neck。 〃And then you step into the black water…the silence between the stars…and find that there is no bottom。 You disappear into that silence； only to find that it isn't silence at all； but a riot of munication you have been too dull…witted to prehend。〃
She felt his teeth on her flesh； his words in her ears in exactly the same way。 〃Immersed in a thunder of munication； your sense of humanness slips away； its importance diminishing to a point on the new horizon。 Now prehension is all that matters； understanding and being understood。 An end to isolation； a chance to bee one with the angels。〃
Irina was dizzy with sensation。 The sensuality of his body was bining with that peculiar silent munication of his to create a whirlpool toward which she was being all too willingly drawn。 Concentric circles 6f reality/time/energy seemed to surround her； pulsing in the darkness of the pool； heating the water she swam in； the air she breathed。 Oxygen was being forced into her lungs as if through a bellows； there was a singing in her blood instead of a pulse。
The world disappeared。
In its place Irina hung suspended like a star in the blackest of heavens。 And there was Odysseus； beside her； part of her； in her。
Sliding in as easily as if he had always been there。 Irina； filling up with him； felt the moat disappear； the wall of glass dissolving。 An end to isolation； a chance to bee one with the angels。 Her own isolation was at an end； as if her making love to the Hero was more than a physical act； as if it were emotional； as well as symbolic。 She had at last found the strength to embrace something with every cell of herself； unequivocally； unreservedly； accepting it all； wanting it all； the good and the bad； the light and the darkness； because she was no longer terrified of the darkness inside herself； because in embracing Odysseus； she was also accepting all of herself； even the part that she had hated； feared； had tried for so long to disown。
Her breasts crushed against him； her erect nipples brushing his smooth； smooth flesh； her arms surrounding him； feeling the odd shape of his curved back； but not being afraid； accepting that as part of him。
Her eyes opened to watch his face lovingly； startled when his amazing eyes opened and she stared into their pewter depths； seeing behind them the images in which he had been immersed ever since the event in the nonsilence between the stars。 Irina saw what he saw； felt what he felt。 She was aware of their two hearts； beating in unison…surely an illusion…the ticking of a cosmic clock in the dark sea of reality/time/energy。
Her muscles were tensed as her hips moved； as her breath came in hot； excited spurts； but beneath that her bones had turned to liquid； as if she has been somehow transformed from human being into a creature of another design； as if the places where her bones were had been turned into conduits； filled with an alien fluid pulsing with the beat of their two hearts。
And in that shocked instant； when her hips speeded up but felt heavy with lust and longing； Irina saw/knew/sensed what it was that Odysseus had encountered in the space between the stars； the entity that had given him the tantalizing glimpse of its world/time/reality： a double…pumped engine like a heart； liquid 〃bones〃 beneath muscle as hard as a carapace； sense organs in a star…shaped cluster in what might be called a head； but with a body shape that was inprehensible because it slipped back and forth between two and three dimensions。
Odysseus was not mad…or perhaps he was mad； and she was mad as well。 But if so； then this madness was a state of grace； and Irina was grateful that it had e to her。
This thought exploded in her mind like lightning as her body spasmed； as the Него exploded inside her； so deep that she felt him hard against her inner core； and this set her off again； moaning and thrashing against him； hearing his own deep…felt groan in her mind as well as in her ears。
Ripples； black in the starless darkness that immersed them； held them fast； protected them from everyone and everything； purled outward from the engine of their bodies； filling the water's surface with purpose。
At the other end of the pool； Arbat floated； still； silent； feeling the ripples wash endlessly against her； happy because the Hero was happy； content because the Него was content。
After a very long time Odysseus slipped from Irina's warmth； but； strangely； she did not feel the emptiness； the sting of sadness she usually did at that moment。 She was left with the image of what she had been exposed to； what she had bee。 She reached out； touched him； wondering if； instead of calcium； there was fluid running in the conduits of his bones。
Odysseus laughed。 〃Not yet；〃 he said； reading her mind。 〃Though maybe one day。〃
Irina was still trembling。 Waves of emotion rippled through her； but it could not dissolve the dark undercurrent that left a bitter taste in her mouth。 And s