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He stood for an unknown length of time； literally paralyzed by all that had happened in such a short space of time。 His dream was still with him； painting everything a slightly unreal shade。 It was as if he had taken a very mild mescaline hit。 Had he maybe hurt Danny as Wendy thought？ Tried to strangle his son at his dead father's request？ No。 He would never hurt Danny。
（He fell down the stairs； Doctor。） He would never hurt Danny now。
（How could I know the bug bomb was defective？） Never in his life had he been willfully vicious when he was sober。
（Except when you almost killed George Hatfield。）
〃No！〃 he cried into the darkness。 He brought both fists crashing down on his legs； again and again and again。
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Wendy sat in the overstuffed chair by the window with Danny on her lap； holding him； crooning the old meaningless words； the ones you never remember afterward no matter how a thing turns out。 He had folded onto her lap with neither protest nor gladness； like a paper cutout of himself； and his eyes didn't even shift toward the door when Jack cried out 〃No！〃 somewhere in the hallway。
The confusion had receded a little bit in her mind； but she now discovered something even worse behind it。 Panic。
Jack had done this； she had no doubt of it。 His denials meant nothing to her。
She thought it was perfectly possible that Jack had tried to throttle Danny in his sleep just as he had smashed the CB radio in his sleep。 He was having a breakdown of some kind。 But what was she going to do about it？ She couldn't stay locked in here forever。 They would have to eat。
There was really only one question； and it was asked in a mental voice of utter coldness and pragmatism； the voice of her maternity； a cold and passionless voice once it was directed away from the closed circle of mother and child and out toward Jack。 It was a voice that spoke of self…preservation only after son…preservation and its question was： （Exactly how dangerous is he？） He had denied doing it。 He had been horrified at the bruises； at Danny's soft and implacable disconnection。 If he had done it； a separate section of himself had been responsible。 The fact that he had done it when he was asleep was…in a terrible； twisted way…encouraging。 Wasn't it possible that he could be trusted to get them out of here？ To get them down and away。 And after that 。 。 。
But she could see no further than she and Danny arriving safe at Dr。 Edmonds's office in Sidewinder。 She had no particular need to see further。 The present crisis was more than enough to keep her occupied。
She crooned to Danny； rocking him on her breasts。 Her fingers； on his shoulder； had noticed that his T…shirt was damp； but they had not bothered reporting the information to her brain in more than a cursory way。 If it had been reported； she might have remembered that Jack's hands； as he had hugged her in the office and sobbed against her neck； bad been dry。 It might have given her pause。 But her mind was still on other things。 The decision had to be made…to approach Jack or not？
Actually it was not much of a decision。 There was nothing she could do alone； not even carry Danny down to the office and call for help on the CB radio。 He had suffered a great shock。 He ought to be taken out quickly before any permanent damage could be done。 She refused to let herself believe that permanent damage might already have been done。
And still she agonized over it； looking for another alternative。 She did not want to put Danny back within Jack's reach。 She was aware now that she had made one bad decision when she had gone against her feelings （and Danny's） and allowed the snow to close them in 。 。 。 for Jack's sake。 Another bad decision when she had shelved the idea of divorce。 Now she was nearly paralyzed by the idea that she might be making another mistake； one she would regret every minute of every day of the rest of her life。
There was not a gun in the place。 There were knives hanging from the magnetized runners in the kitchen； but Jack was between her and them。
In her striving to make the right decision； to find the alternative； the bitter irony of her thoughts did not occur： an hour ago she had been asleep； firmly convinced that things were all right and soon would be even better。 Now she was considering the possibility of using a butcher knife on her husband if he tried to interfere with her and her son。
At last she stood up with Danny in her arms； her legs trembling。 There was no other way。 She would have to assume that Jack awake was Jack sane； and that he would help her get Danny down to Sidewinder and Dr。 Edmonds。 And if Jack tried to do anything but help； God help him。
She went to the door and unlocked it。 Shifting Danny up to her shoulder； she opened it and went out into the hall。
〃Jack？〃 she called nervously； and got no answer。
With growing trepidation she walked down to the stairwell； but Jack was not there。 And as she stood there on the landing； wondering what to do next； the singing came up from below； rich； angry； bitterly satiric：
〃Roll me over In the clo…ho…ver； Roll me over； lay me down and do it again。〃
She was frightened even more by the sound of him than she had been by his silence； but there was still no alternative。 She started down the stairs。
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〃IT WAS HER！〃
Jack had stood on the stairs； listening to the crooning； forting sounds ing muffled through the locked door； and slowly his confusion had given way to anger。 Things had never really changed。 Not to Wendy。 He could be off the juice for twenty years and still when he came home at night and she embraced him at the door； he would see/ sense that little flare of her nostrils as she tried to divine scotch or gin fumes riding the outbound train of his exhalation。 She was always going to assume the worst； if he and Danny got in a car accident with a drunken blindman who 。had had a stroke just before the collision； she would silently blame Danny's injuries on him and turn away。
Her face as she had snatched Danny away…it rose up before him and he suddenly wanted to wipe the anger that had been on it out with his fist。
She had no goddam right！
Yes； maybe at first。 He had been a lush； he had done terrible things。 Breaking Danny's arm had been a terrible thing。 But if a man reforms； doesn't he deserve to have his reformation credited sooner or later？ And if he doesn't get it； doesn't he deserve the game to go with the name？ If a father constantly accuses his virginal daughter of screwing every boy in junior high； must she not at last grow weary （enough） of it to earn her scoldings？ And if a wife secretly…and not so secretly…continues to believe that her teetotaling husband is a drunk 。 。 。
He got up； walked slowly down to the first…floor landing； and stood there for a moment。 He took his handkerchief from his back pocket； wiped his lips with it； and considered going down and pounding on the bedroom door； demanding to be let in so he could see his son。 She had no right to be so goddam highhanded。
Well； sooner or later she'd have to e out； unless she planned a radical sort of diet f