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ook had recently been installed here and my attendant gray man obligingly hooked me up to it。
〃There is little chance of my starving to death；〃 I told him。 〃Because I'll die of thirst first。〃
He gave no spoken answer but he did return with a soft plastic water bottle and a standard Cliaand field ration。 Not the world's most inspiring food； but it would keep me alive。
As I chewed and sipped I clamped hard on that last thought。 Keep me alive。 They would do anything except kill me。 They wanted me； actually needed me。 They knew that the Special Corps was breathing hot on their trail and they would have to exert an all…out effort to stop them。 Kraj had talked big and half convinced me； I looked at my wrists and shuddered。 He had convinced me。 But why had he tried so hard？
Because I was obviously more than a pawn in this game。 I was the factor that could swing the oute either way。 Right now Cliaand was doing well in the invasion businessbut they could be stopped。 With what I knew the Special Corps could start work as counterinsurgents and prevent expansion to other planets。 Cliaand might even be stopped here。 If I were to change sides my specialized knowledge might not defeat the Corps； but it could surely slow it down long enough for the second phase of the invasion operation to go into effect。
Which means the gray men had made a mistake。 They should have killed me as soon as they discovered who I was。 If I could be tortured and convinced to change my mind I might be a weapon in their hands。 Two maybes。 That ignored the fact that as long as I was alive I was the most deadly and potent weapon against them。
They had made a mistake。 I grabbed to that conclusion and worried it just as I worried the law…breaking ration。 I did not consider that I was their prisoner in every way。 Every way？ Ha！ Physically； yes。 Mentallya resounding no。 They had almost had me there for a while with the nerve torture and the positive assurance that I would fall into their hands。 At the thought of amputation my stomach gave a heave and I suddenly lost my appetite。 I had put the sight of my severed hands out of my mind。 For good reasons。
Now I would have to remember and think about it。 But not in the way they wanted。 It was a trick； it had to be a trick； and that was the supposition I must hold on to。 While I chewed and glugged down the rest of my unappetizing meal I gave myself the hard sell。 Listen diGriz； you know enough about reality to be able to tell when it has been tampered with。 You are always tampering with it yourself for your own benefit and others' dismoding。 So now someone has turned the same trick on you。 The severed wrists pumping blood！ Down； boy。 Drain away some of the emotion。 We'll get to the memories after a while。 But let us first look at the realities。
Reality。 Marvelous as medicine is it cannot repair amputation in a couple of hours or a couple of days。
Now where did that figure e from？ At some unconscious level I felt that only a brief time had passed between the amputation and the recovery。 We all have a clock ticking away down deep in the brain； it controls the circadian rhythms of sleeping and waking and it works all of the time。 Right now it was trying to tell me that only a brief time had passed since I had been brought here by the gray men。 But did I have any real evidence to back it up？ I felt my face and my hair。 I needed a shave； but not badly； and my hair felt about the right length。 But I could have had a haircut and a shave； no evidence there。
My fingernails？ I kept them trimmed short； and one trimmed fingernail looks like any other one。 Wait； think。 Memory。 Something。 Small。 Yesduring the landing； plenty of tension； plenty of distractions。 I had broken the little fingernail on my left hand。 No； don't look yet； sit on the thing and remember。 Broken nail 。 。 。 distraction 。 。 。 bit it off。 A rather unappetizing bit of self…consumption that most of us indulge in at one time or another。 The offending particle of nail torn free； right down to the quick； a minor ouch and a tiny drop of blood。 pletely forgotten in the rush of subsequent events。
With careful motions I released my left hand from its prisoning buttock and held it before me。 Little finger； short nailand a tiny clot of blood。
Got you； Kraj； you old faker！
From the look of the thing I had been a prisoner for a day or two at the most； surely no longer than that。 The red marks on my wrists were just thatred marks on my wrists。 There were a hundred different ways this could have been done。 And the amputation？ Kraj had tampered with my reality； hypnosis perhaps； it didn't really matter。
Kraj and his crew were not as bright as they looked。 They had undoubtedly used this mind…cracking torture many times before and had really impressed themselves with the success of the technique。 Perhaps this was the way they converted recruits to their nasty ends on the planets they were to invade。 Very possible。 But Kraj's cutthroats were used to working on solid citizens； one dimensional peasants who mistook the painted flats and props of their existence as the only reality。 Their world was the only real world； their town the really best town。 Pull them out of the familiar environment and put pressure on their minds and their brains ran out of their ears； like jelly。 Jelly men； prey for the gray men。
Not noble； upright； flexible； dishonest； chameleon…like Slippery Jim diGriz。 Man of a thousand faces； familiar of a hundred cultures； linguistically petent in scores of tongues。 And they wanted to louse up my reality？ It made me laugh。 I laughed。
I not only laughed but I scampered and danced。 I ran in circles shouting Yippee！ and Victory！ and other cries of happiness。 Because of my collar and cable I was forced to run in circles but I found that I could vary this by swinging in circles。 The cable was too thin to climb； deliberately designed so I am sure； but I could coil a loop of it and hang from this。 I made the loop as high above my head as I could reach； grabbed it； kicked off and swung freely。 At the bottom of the swing I kicked hard and went higher。 Great fun。 Until my hand slipped and the loop unlooped。
Everything almost ended at that moment as all of my weight came on the metal collar about my neck。 That's the way they kill people； you know； by hanging。 Not by suffocating them。 By giving that sudden jerk to the noose that breaks the spinal cord。
This thought was uppermost in my mind as I clutched and scrabbled at the cable and managed to grip it before the snap came。 And it came on the front of my neck； not the side； or I might very well have heard that sharp crack that signals the end。 It hurt and everything went around in circles for a minute and when I said Wow！ it was in a whispered voice because I had not done my vocal cords any good either。
Eventually I sat up and drank some water and felt a little betterand wondered why no one had e to investigate all the recent nonsense。 I was sure they had the room bugged to watch me； but perhaps they were not impressed by my acrobatics。 Or maybe they were so busy with the invasion that they did not have time to keep that careful an eye on me。 If this