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ert on a hard board with his face beneath a shroud。 What was that； if it wasn't dead？ They were saying prayers for his soul； hoping to waft it heavenward； meanwhile carrying his remains to what dispatch？ A hole in the ground？ A pyre？ He had to stop them： raise a hand； a moan； anything to signal that this leave…taking was premature。 As he was concentrating on making a sign； however primitive； a voice cut through the prayers。 Both prayers and bier bearers stumbled to a halt and the same voice…it was Pie！…came again。
〃Not yet！〃 it said。
Somebody off to Gentle's right murmured something in a language Gentle didn't recognize： words of consolation； perhaps。 The mystif responded in the same tongue； its voice fractured with grief。
A third speaker now entered the exchange； his purpose undoubtedly the same as his patriot's： coaxing Pie to leave the body alone。 What were they saying？ That the corpse was just a husk； an empty shadow of a man whose spirit was gone into a better place？ Gentle willed Pie not to listen。 The spirit was here！ Here！
Then…joy of joys！…the shroud was pulled back from his face； and Pie appeared in his field of vision； staring down at him。 The mystif looked half dead itself； its eyes raw； its beauty bruised with sorrow。
I'm saved； Gentle thought。 Pie sees that my eyes are open； and there's more than putrefaction going on in my skull。 But no such prehension came into Pie's face。 The sight simply brought a new burst of tears。 A man came to Pie's side； his head a cluster of crystalline growths； and laid his hands on the mystif s shoulders； whispering something in its ear and gently tugging it away。 Pie's fingers went to Gentle's face and lay for a few seconds close to his lips。 But his breath…which he'd used to shatter the wall between Dominions…was so piffling now it went unfelt； and the fingers were withdrawn by the hand of Pie's consoler； who then reached down and drew the shroud back over Gentle's face。
The prayer sayers picked up their dirge； and the bearers their burden。 Blinded again； Gentle felt the spark of hope extinguished； replaced with panic and anger。 Pie had always claimed such sensitivity。 How was it possible that now； when empathy was essential； the mystif could be immune to the jeopardy of the man it claimed as a friend？ More than that： a soul mate； someone it had reconfigured its flesh for。
Gentle's panic slowed for an instant。 Was there some half hope buried amid these rebukes？ He scoured them for a clue。 Soul mate？ Reconfigured flesh？ Yes； of course： as long as he had thought he had desire； and desire could touch the mystif； change the mystif。 If he could put death from his mind and turn his thoughts to sex he might still touch Pie's protean core： bring about some metamorphosis； however small； that would signal his sentience。
As if to confound him； a remark of Klein's drifted into his head； recalled from another world。 〃All that time wasted；〃 Klein had said； 〃meditating on death to keep yourself from ing too soon。 。 。。〃
The memory seemed mere distraction； until he realized that it was precisely the mirror of his present plight。 Desire was now his only defense against premature extinction。 He turned his thoughts to the little details that were always a stimulus to his erotic imagination： a nape bared by lifted curls； lips rewetted by a slow tongue； looks； touches； dares。 But thanatos had eros by the neck。 His terror drove arousal away。 How could he hold a sexual thought in his head long enough to influence Pie when either the flame or the grave was waiting at his feet？ He was ready for neither。 One was too hot； the other too cold； one bright； the other so very dark。 What he wanted was a few more weeks； days…hours； even； he'd be grateful for hours…in the space between such poles。 Where flesh was； where love was。
Knowing the death thoughts couldn't be mastered； he attempted one final gambit： to embrace them； to fold them into the texture of his sexual imaginings。 Flame？ Let that be the heat of the mystif s body as it was pressed against him； and cold the sweat on his back as they coupled。 Let the darkness be a night that concealed their excesses； and the pyre blaze like their mutual consumption。 He could feel the trick working as he thought this through。 Why should death be so unerotic？ If they blistered or rotted together； mightn't their dissolution show them new ways to love； uncovering them layer by layer and joining their moistures and their marrows until they were utterly mingled？
He'd proposed marriage to Pie and been accepted。 The creature was his to have and hold； to make over and over； in the image of his fondness and most forbidden desires。 He did so now。 He saw the creature naked and astride him； changing even as he touched it； throwing off skins like clothes。 Jude was one of those skins； and Vanessa another； and Martine another still。 They were all riding him high： the beauty of the world impaled on his prick。
Lost in this fantasy； he wasn't even aware that the prayers had stopped until the bier was halted once again。 There were whispers all around him； and in the middle of the whispers soft and astonished laughter。 The shroud was snatched away； and his beloved was looking down at him； grinning through features blurred by tears and Gentle's influence。
〃He's alive！ Jesu； he's alive！〃 There were doubting voices raised； but the mystif laughed them down。
〃I feel him in me！〃 it said。 〃I swear it！ He's still with us。 Put him down！ Put him down！〃
The pallbearers did as they were instructed； and Gentle had his first glimpse of the strangers who'd almost bade him farewell。 Not a happy bunch； even now。 They stared down at the body； still disbelieving。 But the danger was over； at least for the time being。 The mystif leaned over Gentle and kissed his lips。 Its face was fixed once more； its features exquisite in their joy。
〃I love you；〃 it murmured to Gentle。 〃I'll love you until the death of love。〃
Alive he was； but not healed。 He was moved to a small room of gray brick and laid on a bed only marginally more fortable than the boards they'd laid him on as a corpse。 There was a window； but being unable to move he had to rely upon Pie 'oh' pah to lift him up and show him the view through it； which was scarcely more interesting than the walls； being simply an expanse of sea…solid once again… under a cloudy sky。
〃The sea only changes when the suns e out；〃 Pie explained。 〃Which isn't very often。 We were unlucky。 But everyone is amazed that you survived。 Nobody who fell into the Cradle ever came out alive before。〃
That he was something of a curiosity was evidenced by the number of visitors he had； both guards and prisoners。 The regime seemed to be fairly relaxed； from what little he could judge。 There were bars on the windows； and the door was unbolted and bolted up again when anybody came or went； but the officers； particularly the Oethac who ran the asylum； named Vigor N'ashap； and his number two…a military peacock named Aping； whose buttons and boots shone a good deal more brightly than his eyes； and whose features drooped on his head as though sodden…were polite enough。
〃They get no news out here；〃 Pie explained。 〃They just get sent prisoners to