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k fist。 In his mind he could hear that stretched tissue screaming…nothing coherent； only stupid flesh crying out in pain。
He tried to look away from the seagull again and he couldn't。 The gull's beak opened； giving him a brief glimpse of dirty pink gullet。 The clam snapped back into its cracked shell and for a moment the gull was looking at him； its eyes a deadly black； confirming every horrible truth： fathers die； mothers die； uncles die even if they went to Yale and look as solid as bank walls in their three…piece Savile Row suits。 Kids die too； maybe 。 。 。 and at the end all there may be is the stupid； unthinking scream of living tissue。
'Hey；' Jack said aloud； not aware he was doing anything but thinking inside his own head。 'Hey； give me a break。'
The gull sat over its catch； regarding him with its beady black eyes。 Then it began to dig at the meat again。 Want some； Jack？ It's still twitching！ By God； it's so fresh it hardly knows it's dead！
The strong yellow beak hooked into the meat again and pulled。 Strettttchhhhhh…
It snapped。 The gull's head went up toward the gray September sky and its throat worked。 And again it seemed to be looking at him； the way the eyes in some pictures seemed always to look at you no matter where you went in the room。 And the eyes 。 。 。 he knew those eyes。
Suddenly he wanted his mother…her dark blue eyes。 He could not remember wanting her with such desperation since he had been very； very small。 La…la； he heard her sing inside his head； and her voice was the wind's voice； here for now； somewhere else all too soon。 La…la； sleep now； Jacky； baby…bunting； daddy's gone a…hunting。 And all that jazz。 Memories of being rocked； his mother smoking one Herbert Tareyton after another； maybe looking at a script…blue pages； she called them； he remembered that： blue pages。 La…la； Jacky； all is cool。 I love you； Jacky。 Shhh 。 。 。 sleep。 La…la。
The gull was looking at him。
With sudden horror that engorged his throat like hot salt water he saw it really was looking at him。 Those black eyes （whose？） were seeing him。 And he knew that look。
A raw strand of flesh still dangled from the gull's beak。 As he looked； the gull sucked it in。 Its beak opened in a weird but unmistakable grin。
He turned then and ran； head down； eyes shut against the hot salt tears； sneakers digging against the sand； and if there was a way to go up； go up and up； up to some gull's…eye view； one would have seen only him； only his tracks； in all that gray day； Jack Sawyer； twelve and alone； running back toward the inn； Speedy Parker forgotten； his voice nearly lost in tears and wind； crying the negative over and over again： no and no and no。
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He paused at the top of the beach； out of breath。 A hot stitch ran up his left side from the middle of his ribs to the deepest part of his armpit。 He sat down on one of the benches the town put out for old people and pushed his hair out of his eyes。
Got to get control of yourself。 If Sergeant Fury goes Section Eight； who's gonna lead the Howling mandos？
He smiled and actually did feel a little better。 From up here； fifty feet from the water； things looked a little better。 Maybe it was the change in barometric pressure； or something。 What had happened to Uncle Tommy was horrible； but he supposed he would get over it； learn to accept。 That was what his mother said； anyway。 Uncle Morgan had been unusually pesty just lately； but then； Uncle Morgan had always been sort of a pest。
As for his mother 。 。 。 well； that was the big one； wasn't it？
Actually； he thought； sitting on the bench and digging at the verge of the sand beyond the boardwalk with one toe； actually his mother might still be all right。 She could be all right； it was certainly possible。 After all； no one had e right out and said it was the big C； had they？ No。 If she had cancer； she wouldn't have brought him here； would she？ More likely they'd be in Switzerland； with his mother taking cold mineral baths and scoffing goat…glands； or something。 And she would do it； too。
So maybe…
A low； dry whispering sound intruded on his consciousness。 He looked down and his eyes widened。 The sand had begun to move by the instep of his left sneaker。 The fine white grains were sliding around in a small circle perhaps a finger's length in diameter。 The sand in the middle of this circle suddenly collapsed； so that now there was a dimple in the sand。 It was maybe two inches deep。 The sides of this dimple were also in motion： around and around； moving in rapid counterclockwise circuits。
Not real； he told himself immediately； but his heart began to speed up again。 His breathing also began to e faster。 Not real； it's one of the Daydreams； that's all； or maybe it's a crab or something 。 。 。
But it wasn't a crab and it wasn't one of the Daydreams…this was not the other place； the one he dreamed about when things were boring or maybe a little scary； and it sure as hell wasn't any crab。
The sand spun faster； the sound arid and dry； making him think of static electricity； of an experiment they had done in science last year with a Leyden jar。 But more than either of these； the minute sound was like a long lunatic gasp； the final breath of a dying man。
More sand collapsed inward and began to spin。 Now it was not a dimple； it was a funnel in the sand； a kind of reverse dust…devil。 The bright yellow of a gum wrapper was revealed； covered； revealed； covered； revealed again…each time it showed up again。 Jack could read more of it as the funnel grew： JU； then JUI； then JUICY F。 The funnel grew and the sand was jerked away from the gum wrapper again。 It was as quick and rude as an unfriendly hand jerking down the covers on a made bed。 JUICY FRUIT； he read； and then the wrapper flapped upward。
The sand turned faster and faster； in a hissing fury。 Hhhhh…haaaaahhhhhhhh was the sound the sand made。 Jack stared at it； fascinated at first； and then horrified。 The sand was opening like a large dark eye： it was the eye of the gull that had dropped the clam on the rock and then pulled the living meat out of it like a rubber band。
Hhhhhhaaaahhhhh； the sand…spout mocked in its dead； dry voice。 That was not a mind…voice。 No matter how much Jack wished it were only in his head； that voice was real。 His false teeth flew； Jack； when the old WILD CHILD hit him； out they went； rattledy…bang！ Yale or no Yale； when the old WILD CHILD van es and knocks your false teeth out； Jacky； you got to go。 And your mother…
Then he was running again； blindly； not looking back； his hair blown off his forehead； his eyes wide and terrified。
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Jack walked as quickly as he could through the dim lobby of the hotel。 All the atmosphere of the place forbade running： it was as quiet as a library； and the gray light which fell through the tall mullioned windows softened and blurred the already faded carpets。 Jack broke into a trot as he passed the desk； and the stooped ashen…skinned day…clerk chose that second to emerge through an arched wooden passage。 The clerk said nothing； but his permanent scowl dragged the corners of his mouth another centimeter downward。 It was like b