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ch hill today； maybe if he wandered in the woods around Vigor Church； then the dream beast could find him。
One thing was sure。 He wasn't going to spend another night without whisky。 Not when he had a keg out in a crotch of a tree that could take away the black noise and let him sleep。
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Lolla…Wossiky walked everywhere in the woods。 He saw many animals； but they all ran from him； he was so drunk or so bound up in the black noise that he never was part of the land； and they ran from him just as if he were White。
Discouraged； he began to drink more than four swallows； even though he knew he would run out of whisky too fast。 He walked less and less in the forest； more and more along the White man's paths and roads； showing up at farmhouses in the middle of the day。 The women sometimes screamed and ran away； carrying a baby and leading children off into the woods。 Other women pointed guns at him and made him leave。 Some of them fed him and talked about Jesus Christ。 Finally Armor…of…God told him not to visit the farms when the men were away； working on the church。
So there was nothing left for Lolla…Wossiky to do。 He knew he was close to the dream beast； but he couldn't find it。 He couldn't walk in the forest because the animals ran from him and he stumbled and fell all the time； more and more； until he feared he might break a bone and die of starvation because he couldn't even call small animals to feed him。 He couldn't visit the farms because the men were angry。 So he lay on the mons； sleeping from drunkenness or trying to endure the pain of the black noise； one or the other。
Sometimes he worked up the energy to go up the hill and see the men working on the church。 Whenever he got there； some man would call out； 〃Here es the Red Christian！〃 and Lolla…Wossiky knew that there was malice and ridicule in the voices that said it and the voices that laughed。
He was not at the church the day the roof…beam fell。 He was sleeping on the grass of the mons； near the porch of Armor's house； when he heard the crash。 It startled him awake； and the black noise came back harsher than ever； even though he had drunk eight swallows that morning and ought to be drunk till noon。 He lay there holding his head until men started ing down from the hill； cursing and muttering about the strange thing that happened。
〃What happened？〃 Lolla…Wossiky asked。 He had to know； because whatever it was； it had made the black noise worse than it had been in years。 〃Was a man killed？〃 He knew that a gunshot made the black noise in the first place。 〃Did White Murderer Harrison shoot somebody？〃
At first they paid him no attention； because they thought he was drunk； of course。 But finally someone told him what happened。
They had been laying the first ridgebeam in place； high on top of the building； when the central ridgepole shivered and tossed the ridgebeam up in the air。 〃Came down flat； just like God's own foot stepping on the earth； and wouldn't you know； there was that little Alvin Junior； Al Miller's boy； right under the beam。 Well； we thought he was dead。 The boy just stood there； the beam landed smack you must have heard the noise； that's why it sounded like a gun to you but you won't believe this。 That ridgebeam split right in half； right in the very place where Alvin was standing； split right in two and landed on this side and that side of him； didn't touch a hair on his head。〃
〃Something strange about that boy；〃 said a man。
〃He's got a guardian angel； that's what he's got；〃 said another。
Alvin Junior。 The boy he couldn't see with his eye open。
There was no one at the church when Lolla…Wossiky got there。 The ridgebeam was also gone； everything swept out； no sign of the accident。 But Lolla…Wossiky was not looking with his eye。 He could feel it； almost as soon as he got within sight of the church。 A whirlpool； not fast at the edges； but stronger and stronger the closer he came。 A whirlwind of light； and the closer he got； the weaker the black noise became。 Until he stood on the church floor； in the spot that he knew was where the boy was standing。 How did he know？ The black noise was quieter。 Not gone； the pain not healed； but Lolla…Wossiky could feel the green land again； just a little； not like it used to be； but he could feel the small life under the floor； a squirrel in the meadow not far off； things he hadn't felt； drunk or sober； in all the years since the gun blew the black noise into his head。
Lolla…Wossiky turned around and around； seeing nothing but the walls of the church。 Until he closed his eye。 Then he saw the whirlwind； yes； white light spinning and spinning around him； and the black noise retreating。 He was in the end of his own dream now； and he could see with his eye closed； see clearly。 There was a shining path ahead of him； a road as bright as the noonday sky； dazzling like meadow snow on a clear day。 He knew already； without opening his eye to see； where the path would lead。 Up the hill； down the other side； up a higher hill； to a house not far from a strewn； a house where lived a White boy who was only visible to Lolla…Wossiky with his eye closed。
His silent step had returned to him； now that the black noise had backed off a bit。 He walked around the house； around and around。 No one heard him。 Inside laughter； shouting； screaming。 Happy children； quarreling children。 Stern voices of parents。 Except for the language； it could be his village。 His own sisters and brothers in the happy days before White Murderer Harrison took his father's life。
The White father； Alvin Miller； came out to the privy。 Not long after； the boy himself came； running； as if he was afraid。 He shouted at the privy door。 With his eye open； Lolla…Wossiky only knew that someone was standing there； shouting。 With his eye closed； he saw the boy clearly； radiant； and heard his voice like birdsong across a river； all music； even though what he said was silly； foolish； like a child。
〃If you don't e out I'll do it right in front of the door so you'll step in it when you e out！〃
Then silence； as the boy grew more worried； hitting himself on the top of his head with his own fist； as if to say； Stupid； stupid； stupid。 Something changed in Al Junior's expression； Lolla…Wossiky opened his eye to see that the father had e out； was saying something。
The boy answered him； ashamed。 The father corrected him。 Lolla…Wossiky closed his eye。
〃Yes sir；〃 said the boy。
Again the father must be speaking； but with his eye closed Lolla…Wossiky did not hear the father。
〃Sorry； Papa。〃
Then the father must have walked away； because little Alvin went into the privy。 Muttering； so soft no one could hear。 But Lolla…Wossiky heard。 〃Well； if you'd just build another outhouse I'd be fine。〃
Lolla…Wossiky laughed。 Foolish boy； foolish father； like all boys； like all fathers。
The boy finished and went into the house。
Here I am； said Lolla…Wossiky silently。 I followed the shining path； I came to this place； I saw silly White family things； now where is my dream beast？
And again he saw the white light gather； inside the house； following the boy up the stairs。 For Lo