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'No；' he snapped； pointed at the Winder farm insistently。 'We can go there。 That is my home。'
She didn't understand； was being frantic； pulling at his arm； making little grunting noises。 We must hurry。
And that was when he hit her。 A stinging slap across the face that jerked her head sideways； brought a yelp of shock and pain from her lips。 Anger had him yelling； 'That's my bloody home down there and if I want to go back I will and you can go your own way。1 I don't want to go home； I walked out because of what happened there； but since I found out about the outside world I'm running back。 To hide。 To die。
Guilt and remorse came fast on the heels of his unleashed fury。 'Oh Christ； I'm sorry； I didn't mean to hit you。' I did； I just wish I hadn't。
He saw the tears in her eyes； the way her body trembled。
She was trying to cry but it didn't e easy because out here crying was a weakness that your own kind took advantage of。 If only he could made her understand； point down there to that farmhouse； tap your chest。 My home。 It might get through。
He didn't need to because her hand had found his again； a squeeze this time instead of an insistent tug。 I'm sorry； it was not my place to protest against your will because you are now my man。
It was settled then and he knew that she would follow him down the Hill。
He had to keep reminding himself that it was only yesterday that he had left the farm。 It seemed an age； like returning home for the summer vacation； wondering what had changed in his absence。
Jackie's grip tightened on his arm but she wasn't trying to dissuade him from going into the house； only showing her own fear of an unfamiliar dwelling…place。 He saw her amazement at things like doors and windows； the smoothness of the stonework on the walls。 Starting in alarm as the latch clicked； clinging to him like a child。
Phil glanced around； thought perhaps his mother and father might have returned。 But they hadn't。 Once you turned feral you didn't e back。
Jackie stood there watching him as he went to the kitchen cupboard； reached down a can of beans and a small square tin of corned beef； began to open them。 He filled the kettle； discovered to his relief that there was still power ing from the generator。 Jackie backed away a step as the kettle began an increasing hum up towards the boil。 He gave a little laugh； the first time he had seen the funny side of all this since he had e up from the mine。 How the fuck do you explain coffee to an Ancient Brit？
His first task was to work at putting her at her ease。 After they had eaten he would look out some clothes for himself； he didn't need them but it would boost his morale。 Then they would need to rest。 He had not slept for thirty…six hours and he doubted if she had either。
Once again his inhibitions surfaced。 Where and how were they going to sleep？ There were three bedrooms upstairs； his own； his parents'； and the spare room which was full of lumber。 He didn't want to sleep in his parents' because 。 。 。 well； not after that； certainly。 His own then； just a single bed。
'We'd better get some sleep。' He closed his eyes； made a pillow out of his pressed hands。
She nodded； took his arm again。 Where you go； I go。
New fears troubled him as they mounted the stairs； Jackie viewing her surroundings with undisguised awe。 They were going to share a bed； his own single bed； which meant that they would be crushed up tightly together。 He should have been aroused； mankind's strongest urge taking over。 Instead； his stomach rolled and he felt sick； perhaps she was aware of his trembling； misinterpreted it for eagerness。
Phil Winder had often wondered if he was gay。 No； not really； he just had a very low sex drive； and he was naturally shy of girls。 He had had only one real date in his life； Julie who worked in the cafe at Pontypridd； the one that most of the students used。 It had taken him six weeks before he had been able to stammer out a request to take her out and it had been a real shock to him when she had nodded her assent and replied； 'Yes； that would be nice。'
Christ； it had to be his biggest anti…climax； an evening of embarrassment and overwhelming inhibitions。 He hadn't even kissed her goodnight； knew she didn't want to see him again； knew it would happen again with any girl he dated。 Later he got an erection but it was too late then。
Maybe he wasn't exactly gay； just bi…sexual。 He hadn't had a homosexual relationship as such； just little things that had happened between himself and Hugh during the time they had shared digs。 Two of a kind really； and there had to be an outlet for their frustrations somewhere。
It was Hugh who had begun it； and looking back it seemed relatively harmless。 Or was it？ Was it just the beginning of something which had never had the opportunity to e to fruition？ The most thrilling moment of his life had been that night when he had been disturbed from a doze by Hugh sitting on the edge of his bed。 Phil knew even before the other's hand began to creep beneath the sheets exactly what was going to happen。 A moment of electrification and this time there was no embarrassment； no inhibitions because he knew Hugh felt the same way。
It had never ever gone further than gentle mutual masturbation； had lasted for over a year until Hugh graduated。 Then Phil's loneliness came seeping back。 Now he had a woman and his fears were beginning all over again。
'I'm Phil。' He tapped his bare chest； wished that he could keep her eyes elevated。 'Phil。 。 。 Phil 。 。 。' 'Jac；' she smiled。
He wondered why they had not got around to introductions before。 It was the situation； of course。 Names counted for nothing in a primitive classless society。
She crossed to the bed； lowered herself on to it； stretched herself out； eyes closed； legs slightly apart。 Oh Christ； now it's me who's doing the looking； he thought； let his gaze sweep over her； e to rest on that slit of pink soft flesh。 I'd better look out some clothes； some pyjamas maybe。
Her eyes flickered open； caught him staring at her； smiled softly。 She had no inhibitions； only civilisation bred inhibitions。 Society was gone； it was back to the basics now。 He didn't need clothes because it was stifling hot in here。 Right now they didn't need anything except each other。
It was fully dark when Phil Winder awoke； lay there and let everything e back to him in its own time。 His parents； his capture and escape； the flight 。 。 。 Jac！ He could hear her faint breathing； felt the warmth of her naked body against his own。 So forting。
Euphoria because they had made love。 She had clung to him； wanted him； and now they were together。 He did not ever want things to change and spoil all this。 He didn't want his parents to e back； they wouldn't； he knew that。 They might even be dead and he wasn't a bit sorry because they had made him like he was； given him a sheltered upbringing in every respect。 They had sent him to a private school； not for his benefit but as a boost to