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nd symbols took maybe three days to fuck him up enough to swallow the pills and climb into the tub。
He deserved it。
That's what Mr。 Sharpton said about Skipper； and maybe he was right 。 。 。 that time。 But did Neff deserve it？ Was there shit about him I didn't know； did he maybe like little girls in the wrong way or push dope or go after people too weak to fight back； like Skipper had gone after me with the shopping cart？
We want to help you use your talent for the betterment of all mankind； Mr。 Sharpton said； and surely that didn't mean making a guy off himself because he thought the Defense Department was spending too much money on smart…bombs。 Paranoid shit like that is strictly for movies starring Steven Seagal and Jean…Claude Van Damme。
Then I had a bad idea…a scary idea。
Maybe TransCorp didn't want him dead because he wrote that stuff。
Maybe they wanted him dead because people…the wrong people…were starting to think about what he wrote。
'That's crazy；' I said； right out loud； and a woman looking into the window of Columbia City…Oh So Pretty turned around and gave me the old fish…eye。
I ended up at the public library around two o'clock； with my legs aching and my head throbbing。 I kept seeing that guy in the bathtub； with his wrinkled old man's tits and white chest…hair； his nice smile gone； replaced by this vague Planet X look。 I kept seeing him putting a Baggie over his head； humming a Sinatra tune （'My Way；' maybe） as he snugged it down tight； then peered through it the way you'd peer through a cloudy window； so he could see to slit the veins in his wrists。 I didn't want to see that stuff； but I couldn't stop。 My bombsight had turned into a telescope。
They had a puter room in the library； and you could get on the Internet at a very reasonable cost。 I had to get a library card； too； but that was okay。 A library card is good to have； you can never have too much ID。
It took me only three bucks' worth of time to find Ann Tevitch and call up the report of her death。 The story started； I saw with a sinking sensation； in the bottom right…hand corner of page one； The Official Dead Folks' Nook； and then jumped to the obituary page。 Professor Tevitch had been a pretty lady； blond； thirty…seven。 In the photo she was holding her glasses in her hand； as if she wanted people to know she wore them 。 。 。 but as if she'd wanted people to see what pretty eyes she had； too。 That made me feel sad and guilty。
Her death was startlingly like Skipper's…ing home from her office at UNM just after dark； maybe hurrying a little because it was her turn to make supper； but what the hell； good driving conditions and great visibility。 Her car…vanity license plate DNA FAN； I happened to know…had veered off the road； overturned； and landed in a drywash。 She was still alive when someone spotted the headlights and found her； but there had never been any real hope； her injuries were too grave。
There was no alcohol in her system and her marriage was in good shape （no kids； at least； thank God for small favors）； so the idea of suicide was farfetched。 She had been looking forward to the future； had even talked about getting a puter to celebrate a new research grant。 She'd refused to own a PC since 1988 or so； had lost some valuable data in one when it locked up； and had distrusted them ever since。 She would use her department's equipment when she absolutely had to； but that was all。
The coroner's verdict had been accidental death。
Professor Ann Tevitch； a clinical biologist； had been in the forefront of West Coast AIDS research。 Another scientist； this one in California； said that her death might set back the search for a cure five years。 'She was a key player；' he said。 'Smart； yes； but more…I once heard someone refer to her as 'a natural…born facilitator；' and that's as good a description as any。 Ann was the kind of person who holds other people together。 Her death is a great loss to the dozens of people who knew and loved her； but it's an even greater loss to this cause。'
Billy Unger was also easy enough to find。 His picture topped page one of the Stovington Weekly Courant instead of getting stuck down there in The Dead Folks' Nook； but that might have been because there weren't many famous people in Stovington。 Unger had been General William 'Roll Em' Unger； winner of the Silver Star and Bronze Star in Korea。 During the Kennedy administration he was an Undersecretary of Defense （Acquisition Reform）； and one of the really big war…hawks of that time。 Kill the Russkies； drink their blood； keep America safe for the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade； that sort of thing。
Then； around the time Lyndon Johnson was escalating the war in Vietnam； Billy Unger had a change of mind and heart。 He began writing letters to newspapers。 He started his op…ed page career by saying that we were handling the war wrong。 He progressed to the idea that we were wrong to be in Vietnam at all。 Then； around 1975 or so； he got to the point of saying all wars were wrong。 That was okay with most Vermonters。
He served seven terms in the state legislature； starting in 1978。 When a group of Progressive Democrats asked him to run for the U。S。 Senate in 1996； he said he wanted to 'do some reading and consider his options。' The implication was that he would be ready for a national career in politics by 2000； 2002 at the latest。 He was getting old； but Vermonters like old guys； I guess。 1996 went past without Unger declaring himself a candidate for anything （possibly because his wife died of cancer）； and before 2002 came around； he bought himself a big old dirt sandwich and ate every bite。
There was a small but loyal contingent in Stovington which claimed Roll Em's death was an accident； that Silver Star winners don't jump off their roofs even if they have lost a wife to cancer in the last year or so； but the rest pointed out that the guy probably hadn't been repairing the shingles…not in his nightshirt； not at two o'clock in the morning。
Suicide was the verdict。
Yeah。 Right。 Kiss my ass and go to Heaven。
XVIII
I left the library and thought I'd head home。 Instead； I went back to the same park bench again。 I sat there until the sun was low and the place had pretty much emptied out of kids and Frisbee…catching dogs。 And although I'd been in Columbia City for three months by then； it was the latest I'd ever been out。 That's sad； I guess。 I thought I was living a life here； finally getting away from Ma and living a life； but all I've been doing is throwing a shadow。
If people； certain people； were checking up on me； they might wonder why the change in routine。 So I got up； went on home； boiled up a bag of that shit…on…a…shingle stuff； and turned on my TV。 I've got cable； the full package including premium movie channels； and I've never seen a single bill。 How's that for an eventual deal？ I turned on Cinemax。 Rutger Hauer was playing a blind karate…fighter。 I sat down on the couch beneath my fake Rembrandt and watched the show。 I didn't see it； but I ate my chow and looked at it。
I thought about stuff。 About a newspaper columnist who had liberal ideas and a conservative reade