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When she reached the area between the barn and the house； where she could turn around and head out of the driveway front…first； she jammed on the brakes instead。 She stared at the windmill； which was now on the far side of the water。
She had nowhere to run。 Wherever she went； he would find her。 He could see the future； at least to some extent； if not as vividly or in as much detail as The Friend had claimed。 He could transform drywall into a monstrous living organism； change limestone into a transparent substance filled with whirling light； project a beast of hideous design into her dreams and into the doorway of her motel； track her； find her； trap her。
He had drawn her into his mad fantasy and most likely still wanted her to play out her role in it。 The Friend in Jim…and Jim himself might let her go。 But the third personality…the murderous part of him； The Enemy…would want her blood。 Maybe she would be fortunate； and maybe the two benign thirds of him would prevent the other third from taking control and ing after her。 But she doubted it。 Besides； she could not spend the rest of her life waiting for a wall to bulge outward unexpectedly； form into a mouth； and bite her hand off And there was one other problem。
She could not abandon him。 He needed her。
Part THREE From childhood s hour I have not been As others were I have not seen As others saw。
Alone； F；Edgar ALLAN POE Vzbratzons in a wzre。
Ice crystals in a beatzng heart。
Cold fire。
A mind s frzgzdzty： frozen steel； dark rage morbzdity。
Cold fire Defense against a cruel life death and strzfe： Cold fire。
…that。 HOOK OF counted SOHROWS
THE REST OF AUGUST 29
Holly sat in the Ford； staring at the old windmill； scared and exhilarated。
The exhilaration surprised her。 Maybe she felt upbeat because for the first time in her life she had found something to which she was willing to mit herself Not a casual mitment； either。 Not an until…I…get…bored mitment。 She was willing to put her life on the line for this； for Jim and what he could bee if he could be healed； for what they could bee together。
Even if he had told her she could go； and even if she had felt that his release of her was sincere； she would not have abandoned him。
He was her salvation。 And she was his。
The mill stood sentinel against the ashen sky。 Jim had not appeared at the door。 Perhaps he had not yet awakened。
There were still many mysteries within this mystery； but so much was painfully obvious now。 He sometimes failed to save people…like Susie Jawolski's father…because he was not really operating on behalf of an infallible god or a prescient alien； he was acting on his own phenomenal but imperfect visions； he was just a man； special but only a man； and even the best of men had limits。 He evidently felt that he had failed his parents somehow。 Their deaths weighed heavily on his conscience； and he was trying to redeem himself by saving the lives of others： HE LOOKED LIKE MY FATHER； WHOM I FAILED TO SAVE。
It was now obvious； as well； why The Enemy broke through only when Jim was asleep： he was terrified of that dark aspect of himself； that embodiment of his rage； and he strenuously repressed it when he was awake。 At his place in Laguna； The Enemy had materialized in the bedroom while Jim was sleeping and actually had been sustained for a while after Jim had awakened； but when it had crashed through the bathroom ceiling； it had simply evaporated like the lingering dream it was。 Dreams are doorways； The Friend had warned； which had been a warning from Jim himself Dreams were doorways； yes； but not for evil； mind…invading alien monsters ； dreams were doorways to the subconscious； and what came out of them was all too human。
She had other pieces of the puzzle； too。 She just didn't know how they fit together。
Holly was angry with herself for not having asked the correct questions on Monday； when Jim had finally opened his patio door and let her into his life。 He'd insisted that he was only an instrument； that he had no powers of his own。 She'd bought it too quickly。 She should have probed harder； asked tougher questions。 She was as guilty of amateurish interviewing technique as Jim had been when The Friend had first appeared to them。
She had been annoyed by his willingness to accept what The Friend said at face value。 Now she understood that he had created The Friend for the same reason that other victims of multiple…personality syndrome generated splinter personalities： to cope in a world that confused and frightened them。 Alone and afraid at the age of ten； he had taken refuge in fantasy。
He created The Friend； a magical being； as a source of solace and hope。
When Holly pressed The Friend to explain itself logically； Jim resisted her because her probing threatened a fantasy which he desperately needed to sustain himself For similar reasons of her own； she had not questioned him as toughly as she should have on Monday evening。 He was her sustaining dream。 He had e into her life like a heroic figure in a dream； saving Billy Jenkins with dreamlike grace and panache。 Until she had seen him； she had not realized how much she needed someone like him。 And instead of probing deeply at him as any good reporter would have done； she had let him be what he wanted to pretend to be； for she had been reluctant to lose him。
Now their only hope was to press hard for the whole truth。 He could not be healed until they understood why this particular and bizarre fantasy of his had evolved and how in the name of God he had developed the superhuman powers to support it。
She sat with her hands on the steering wheel； prepared to act but with no idea what to do。 There seemed to be no one to whom she could turn for help。 She needed answers that were to be found only in the past or in Jim's subconscious mind； two terrains that at the moment were equally inaccessible。
Then； hit by a thunderbolt of insight； she realized Jim already had given her a set of keys to unlock his remaining mysteries。 When they had driven into New Svenborg； he had taken her on a tour of the town which； at the time； seemed like a tactic to delay their arrival at the farm。 But she realized now that the tour had contained the most important revelations he had made to her。 Each nostalgic landmark was a key to the past and to the remaining mysteries that； once unlocked； would make it possible for her to help him。
He wanted help。 A part of him understood that he was sick； trapped in a schizophrenic fantasy； and he wanted out。 She just hoped that he would suppress The Enemy until they had time to learn what they needed to know。 That darkest splinter of his mind did not want her to succeed； her success would be its death； and to save itself； it would destroy her if it got the chance。
If she and Jim were to have a life together； or any life at all； their future lay in the past； and the past lay in New Svenborg。
She swung the wheel hard right； began to turn around to head out of the driveway to the county road…then stopped。 She looked at the windmill again。
Jim had to be part of his own cure。 She could not track down the truth and make him believe it。 He had to see it