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Kup was tight with Jerry Lewis。 Jerry liked Karyn。 He offered her a bit part in his flick 〃The Ladies' Man〃。
Karyn flew out to L。A。 She dug it and decided to stay。
Essee's mother moved out and played chaperone。 They found a pad on Hollywood Boulevard。 Essee set Karyn up with Mark and Marcia Goddard。 Kup set her up with A…list contacts。
Karyn started a new datebook on 3/9/61。 She recorded her weight in most entries。 She got a nose job on 5/16。 She weighed 1151/2 pounds。
〃Awake during operation。 AGONY。 Felt needles； cutting； 〃everything！〃〃
Karyn thought her new nose looked like a pig snout。 Other people disagreed。
5/29/61。 In Vegas with Kup and Essee：
〃Nose 〃much〃 better！〃 〃So many pliments！〃 Warren Beatty： 〃You're so beautiful。〃 Eddie Fisher： 〃Thought you were Liz。〃
5/27/61：
〃I'm pretty！ So happy！〃
Karyn got a guest shot on 〃Hawaiian Eye〃。 Bob Conrad was 〃a doll。〃 〃〃Me〃so…o plimented！〃
Karyn auditioned。 Karyn went to brunch； lunch； and dinner。 Karyn shopped and got her hair done。 Karyn got her weight down to 1131/2。
She got a series gig on 7/2 5。 The show starred Gertrude Berg。 It was called 〃Mrs。 G。 Goes to College〃。
She started work on 8/2。 Her weight stood at 1 14。 The director said she had a 〃wild body。〃 Karyn played a kooky college kid。
Karyn worked。 Karyn hung out at Pj。's and the Crescendo。 Karyn ate at Linny's and the Hamburger Hamlet。 Karyn shopped atJax and Saks。
8/17/61：
Gertrude thought she wore too much makeup。 〃Everyone around there makes me nervous。〃
8/18/61：
〃Gertrude impossible。 Finallygot my close…up and took four or five takes。 Couldn't get damn thing straight。〃
9/11/61： 113 pounds。 9/12/61： 〃Hardly ate at all！〃 9/15 and 9/16/61： 〃Ate & ate。〃
10/4/61： 〃The Mrs。 G。〃 pilot airs。 109 pounds； 〃My hair darlinglots of pliments。〃 10/ 15/6 1： 116 pounds。 〃Ate 3 Danish；〃 〃Eating too much。〃
Karyn logged male pliments。 Karyn logged male encounters。 She met men。 She kissed them。 They got schizzy and blew her off。 10/22/61： 110 pounds； 〃No one 〃calls〃 me。〃 10/28/61： 114 1/2 pounds。 〃Eating too many sweet rolls。〃
Karyn worked on the Berg Show and tried out for other gigs。 She went out on bad dates and hung out with her girlfriends。 She went to twist clubs and movie premieres。
1/23/62： 121 pounds。 〃I look too heavy； yet everyone calls me beautiful。〃 2/1/62： 117 pounds。 〃Everyone noticed my weight loss。〃 2/5/62： 125 pounds。 〃Stayed in bed。 Ate。 Feel so draggy & tired。〃 2/15/62： 121 pounds。 〃Took pills。〃 〃Looked gorgeous。〃 2/16/62： 〃Woke up very dopey （after 3 sleeping pills）。 Groggy。〃 2/19/62： 〃Slept late；〃 〃Bought 'Leen' tablets。〃
The Berg Show was cancelled。 Karyn went on unemployment。 Kup and Essee sent her money。 Her grandmother moved back to Chicago。
3/22/62： 123 pounds。 〃Got to lose at least io lbs。 by April 8！ Only 17 days。〃
3/29/62：
〃I'm beginning to discover who I am！ My convictions & 'image' are getting clearer。 I know I'm happiest following the pattern of sophistication； than one of girlish appeal。〃
Karyn got a guest shot on 〃The Red Skelton Show〃。 Skelton to Karyn； 4/2/62： 〃3 people said you were prettier than Liz Taylor。〃
More auditions。 More pills。 More brunches； lunches； and dinners。
Two brief love affairs。 Summer stock in Chicago〃Sunday in New York〃。 The Annie Sullivan role in 〃The Miracle Worker〃 at the Laguna Beach Playhouse。 Good reviews and a run below 115。
10/1/62：
〃Woke up feeling slightly nauseous & groggy。 Hallucinations； inferiority plex； aching limbs； stiff neck； （surely liver damage） resulted from pills。〃
10/8/62： 〃Cried myself to sleep。〃 10/9 to I 1/10/62： doodles and inplete notations。 11/11/62： 〃Continuous hysteria。 Deepest depression ever。〃 1 2/3/62： 〃〃Wide Country〃6：00 A。M。 call （location）。〃 12/4/62： 〃Andy Prinedoll！〃 12/6/62： 105 pounds。 〃Andy。 'Raincheck。〃 I 2/9/62： 〃Andy。〃 12/1 1/62： 〃Andy。〃 12/12/62： 〃Look thin。〃 12/13/62： 〃Andy。〃 12/i8； 19； 20； 21； 22： 〃Andy〃and no other notations。
Karyn flew to Chicago for Christmas。 12/28； 12/31 and 1/1/63： 〃Andy called'I love you。〃
It was all Andy now。
1/17/63： 〃Met Andy for lunch。 He was attentive。〃 〃〃Wide Country〃Andy was 〃brilliant〃； I was an EXTRA。 Felt depressed。〃 1/20/63： 〃Andyaloof。〃 2/5/63： 〃Tense & anxious over Andy's attitude。〃 2/11/63： 〃Me tense； blurred vision。 To Dr。 Getzoff （pills） with Andy。〃 2/19/63： 〃Must maintain my own identity； not bee his door…mat。 So useless。〃
3/25/63： 〃Andy picked me up 5：3o。 Lovely loveate at DuPar'sBack & lovely love。〃 4/ 9/6 3： 〃Eating 〃much too much〃。〃 4/11/63： 〃I love Andy Prine。〃 5/21/63： 〃12 P。M。Dr。 Kroger。 Gave me weight capsules。 Finally get a 'lift。' Appetite's inhibited。〃 5/30/63： 〃Andy distantme terribly possessive and weak。〃
Karyn tanked auditions。 Karyn shopped and ate and saw shrinks。
6/21/63：
〃At his house； found out about Cheryl H。 & B。 Scott。 Awful！ 'I don't want to see you tonight either。' I went over。 Got in。 Came back laterHYSTERICS。〃
6/27/63： 〃Getting my self…respect back。 I'm stronger。〃 6/30/63： 〃Oh Andy； lovely； lovely。〃 7/1/63： 134 pounds。 〃Beginning todayI starve！〃 〃Dr。 Krohn prescribed Desoxyn。〃 7/8/63： 124 pounds。 〃Dr。 Krohn； 1：30 p。M。 （Figure's looking better。） Andy： 'It excites me to hurt U a little。〃
Karyn learned she was pregnant。 Mark and Marcia took her down to Tj。 7/9/6 3： 〃Like a nightmare。 This can't be happening to me。〃 7/10/63： 〃Oh GodI don't know what to do。 Called Dr。 Estrada （call back after noon）。〃
7/11/63： 〃Called Dr。 Estrada again。 Getting used to the idea。〃 Karyn got an abortion on 7/12/63。 〃Traumatic。 Glad it's over。 Relief after nightmare。〃 She returned to L。A。 〃Andy considerate & attentive。〃 〃Knots； gaslike cramps。 Andy made soup。〃
7/25/63： 〃I'm so happy。 How long can it last？〃 7/30/63： 〃Andy with Anna。 Me watched from hedge。 Awful。 Nightmares。〃
Karyn stopped auditioning。 Karyn cut down her social contacts。 8/15/63： 〃I must not be possessive〃sweet。〃
8/17/63：
〃Really MAD at the Son of a Bitch。 For the first time； I really dislike Andy。 He shows no consideration or understanding & he humiliates me。〃 8/18/63： 〃How dare he not make one concession or show any feelings？〃
8/20/63： 〃So humiliated by Andy's lack of interest。〃 8/27/63： 〃Feel like I'm about to explode！〃 8/28/63： 〃Eating 〃too〃 much！〃
Karyn stepped up her social contacts。 Karyn moved to the Monterey Village Apartments。 A heat wave scorched L。A。 Karyn got a shot on 〃Perry Mason〃。
10/29/63：
〃Andy acting ugly。 plete indifference。 Scene at his house。 I'm hysterical。〃
11/1/63： 〃No Andyspyed on him。〃 11/2/63： 〃Went to his houseselfish； independent； inconsiderate & thoughtless。 Never gives & unpenetrable。〃 11/4/63： 〃I hid in attic； then sat outside in cold for 2 or 3 hours。 Wish I were dead。〃 1 1/8/63： 〃Dr。 Kroger cried in his office。〃 11/9/63： 〃Eating all day & night。〃 11/10/63： 〃Can't stand itI'm losing reality。〃 11/11/63： 〃Call Andysex。〃 11/15/63： 〃2：00 P。M。Kroger。 Happy & up。 Wore pink skirt Admiring looks。〃
11/22/63： 〃President assassinated。〃
11/23/63： 〃Palm Springs。〃
11/25/63： 〃Ate to oblivion。〃
11/27 or 28：
DEAD