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When she'd blinked the last grains of sleep out of her eyes； when her nerves had stopped jangling； she turned around and surveyed the room。 A quiver of relief swept through her； unknotting her muscles。
She was alone。
With the storm temporarily quiet； she could hear the mantel clock again。 It was the only sound。
Hell； yes； you're alone； she told herself scornfully。 What did you expect？ A green goblin with three eyes and a mouthful of sharp teeth？ You better watch yourself； Grace Louise Mitowski； or you'll wind up in a rest home； sitting all day in a rocking chair； happily chatting with ghosts； while smiling nurses wipe drool off your chin。
Having led an active life of the mind for so many years； she worried more about creeping senility than about anything else。 She knew she was as sharp and alert as she had ever been。 But what about tomorrow and the day after？ Because of her medical training； and because she had kept up with her professional reading even after closing down her psychiatric practice； she was up to date on all the latest findings about senility； and she knew that only fifteen percent of all elderly people suffered from it。 She also knew that more than half of those cases were treatable with proper nutrition and exercise。 She knew her chances of being mentally incapacitated were small； only about one in eighteen。 Nevertheless； although she was conscious of her excessive sensitivity regarding the subject； she still worried。 Consequently； she was understandably disturbed by this uncharacteristic notion that something had been in the study with her a few moments ago； something hostile and。 。 。 supernatural。 As a lifelong skeptic with little or no patience for astrologers and psychics and their ilk； she could not justify even a fleeting belief in such superstitious non…sense； to her way of thinking； beliefs of that nature were。 。 。 well。 。 。 feebleminded。
But good； sweet God； what a nightmare that had been！
She had never before experienced a dream even one…tenth as bad as that one。 Although the grisly details had pletely faded away； she could still clearly remember the mood of it…the terror； the gut…wrenching horror that had permeated every nasty image； every ticking sound。
She shivered。
The sweat that the dream had squeezed out of her was beginning to feel like a thin glaze of ice on her skin。
The only other thing she remembered from the nightmare was Carol。 Screaming。 Crying for help。
Until now； none of Grace's infrequent dreams had included Carol； and there was a temptation to view her appearance in this one with alarm； to see it as an omen。 But of course it wasn't surprising that Carol should eventually have a role in one of Grace's dreams； for the loved…one…in…danger theme was mon in nightmares。 Any psychologist would attest to that； and Grace was a psychologist； a good one； although she was entering her third year of retirement。 She cared deeply about Carol。 If she'd had a child of her own； she couldn't have loved it any more than she loved Carol。
She had first met the girl sixteen years ago； when Carol had been an angry； obstinate； obstreperous fifteen…year…old delinquent who had recently given birth to a baby that had nearly killed her； and who； subsequent to that traumatic episode； had been remanded
to a juvenile detention facility for possession of marijuana and for a host of other offenses。 In those days； in addition to a private psychiatric practice； Grace had performed eight hours a week of free service to assist the overworked counseling staff at the reform school in which Carol was held。 Carol was incorrigible； determined to kick you in the teeth if you smiled at her； but even then her intelligence and innate goodness were there； to be seen by anyone who looked closely enough； beneath the rough exterior。 Grace had taken a very close look indeed； and had been intrigued； impressed。 The girl's obsessively foul language； her vicious temper； and her amoral pose had been nothing more than defense mechanisms； shields with which she protected herself from the physical and psychological abuse dished out by her parents。
As Grace gradually unearthed the horrendous story of Carol's monstrous home life； she became convinced that reform school was the wrong place for the girl。 She used her influence with the court to get Carol permanently removed from the custody of her parents。 Later； she arranged to serve as Carol's foster parent。 She had watched the girl respond to love and guidance； had watched her grow from a brooding； self centered； self…destructive teenager into a warm； self…assured； admirable young woman with hopes and dreams； a woman of character； a sensitive woman。 Playing a part in that exciting transformation had been perhaps the most satisfying thing that Grace had ever done。
The only regret she had about her relationship with Carol was the role she had played in putting the baby up for adoption。 But there had been no reasonable alternative。 Carol simply hadn't been financially or emotionally or mentally capable of providing for the infant。 With that responsibility to attend to； she would never have had an opportunity to grow and change。 She would have been miserable all her life； and she would have made her child miserable； too。 Unfortunately； even now； sixteen years later； Carol felt guilty about giving her baby away。 Her guilt became overpowering on each anniversary of the child's birth。 On that black day； Carol sank into a deep depression and became uncharacteristically unmunicative。 The excessive anguish that she suffered on that one day was evidence of the deep…seated； abiding guilt that she carried with her； to a lesser degree； during the rest of the year。 Grace wished she had foreseen this reaction； wished she had done more to assuage Carol's guilt。
I'm a psychologist； after all； she thought。 I should have anticipated it。
Perhaps when Carol and Paul adopted someone else's child； Carol would feel that the scales had at last been balanced。 The adoption might relieve some of her guilt； in time。
Grace hoped it would。 She loved Carol like a daughter and wanted only the best for her。
And of course she couldn't bear the thought of losing Carol。 Therefore； Carol's appearance in a nightmare wasn't the least bit mysterious。 It was certainly not an omen。
Clammy with stale sweat； Grace turned to the study window again； seeking warmth and light； but the day was ashen； chilly； forbidding。 Wind pressed on the glass； soughed softly under the eaves one floor above。
In the city； near the river； a roiling column of smoke rose into the rain and mist。 She had not noticed it a minute ago； but it must have been there； it was too much smoke to have appeared in only a few seconds。 Even from this distance； she could see a glint of fire at the base of the dark column。
She wondered if lightning had done the dirty work。 She recalled the storm flashing and roaring with extraordinary power in those first seconds after she had awakened。 At the time； groggy and bleary…eyed； she had thought her sleep…dulled senses were misleading her and that the extreme violence of the lightning was largely illusory or even imaginary。 Could that incredible； destructive barrage have been