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s experience in the upstairs room of Caliban Street。 What he had seen there； or rather not seen there； had terrified him more profoundly than the dogs or Breer。 Those were merely physical dangers。 But what had gone on in the room was a danger of another order altogether。 He had felt； perhaps for the first time in his life； that his soul…a notion he had hitherto rejected as Christian flim…flam…had been threatened。 What he meant by the word he wasn't certain； not； he suspected； what the pope meant。 But some part of him more essential than limb or life had been almost eclipsed； and Mamoulian had been responsible。 What more could the creature unleash； if pressed？ His curiosity was more now than an idle desire to know what was behind the veil： it had bee a necessity。 How could they hope to arm themselves against this demagogue without some clue to his nature？
〃I don't want to know；〃 Carys said； reading his thoughts。 〃If he es； he es。 There's nothing we can do about it。〃 〃Last night…〃 he began； about to remind her of how they had won the skirmish。 She waved the thought away before it was finished。 The strain on her face was unbearable； her need was flaying her。
〃Marty 。 。 。〃 He looked across at her。
〃。 。 。 you promised；〃 she said accusingly。
〃I haven't forgotten。〃 He'd done the mental arithmetic in his head： not the cost of the drug itself； but of lost pride。 He would have to go to Flynn for the heroin； he knew no one else he could trust。 They were both fugitives now； from Mamoulian and from the law。
〃I'll have to make a phone call；〃 he said。
〃Make it；〃 she replied。
She seemed to have physically altered in the last half…hour。 Her skin was waxy； her eyes had a desperate gleam in them； the shaking was worsening by the minute。
〃Don't make it easy for him；〃 she said。
He frowned： 〃Easy？〃 〃He can make me do things I don't want to；〃 she said。 Tears had started to run。 There was no acpanying sob； just a free…fall from the eyes。 〃Maybe make me hurt you。〃 〃It's all right。 I'll go now。 There's a guy lives with Charmaine； he'll be able to get me stuff； don't worry。 You want to e？〃 She hugged herself。 〃No；〃 she said。 〃I'll slow you down。 Just go。〃 He pulled on his jacket； trying not to look at her； the mixture of frailty and appetite scared him。 The sweat on her body was fresh； it gathered in the soft passage behind her clavicles； it streamed on her face。
〃Don't let anybody in； OK？〃 She nodded； her eyes searing him。
When he'd gone she locked the door behind him and went back to sit on the bed。 The tears started to e again； freely。 Not grief tears； just salt water。 Well； perhaps there was some grief in them： for this rediscovered fragility； and for the mats who had gone down the stairs。
He was responsible for her present disfort； she thought。 He'd been the one to seduce her into thinking she could stand on her own two feet。 And where had it brought her； brought them both？ To this hothouse cell in the middle of a July afternoon with so much malice ready to close in on them。
It wasn't love she felt for him。 That was too big a burden of feeling to carry。 It was at best infatuation； mingled with that sense of impending loss she always tasted when close to somebody； as though every moment in his presence she was internally mourning the time when he would no longer be there。
Below； the door slammed as he stepped into the street。 She lay back on the bed； thinking of the first time they'd made love together。 Of how even that most private act had been overlooked by the European。 The thought of Mamoulian； once begun； was like a snowball on a steep hill。 It rolled； gathering speed and size as it went； until it was monstrous。 An avalanche； a whiteout。
For an instant she doubted that she was simply remembering： the feeling was so clear； so real。 Then she had no doubts。
She stood up； the bedsprings creaking。 It wasn't memory at all。
He was here。
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〃Flynn？〃 〃Hello。〃 The voice at the other end of the line was gruff with sleep。 〃Who is this？〃 〃It's Marty。 Have I woken you up？〃 〃What the hell do you want？〃 〃I need some help。〃 There was a long silence at the other end of the phone。
〃Are you still there？〃 〃Yeah。 Yeah。〃 〃I need heroin。〃 The gruffness left the voice； incredulity replaced。 it。
〃You on it？〃 〃I need it for a friend。〃 Marty could sense the smile spreading on Flynn's face。 〃Can you get me something？ Quickly。〃 〃How much？〃 〃I've got a hundred quid。〃 〃It's not impossible。〃 〃Soon？〃 〃Yeah。 If you like。 What time is it now？〃 The thought of easy money had got Flynn's mind oiled and ready to go。 〃One…fifteen？ OK。〃 He paused for calculations。 〃You e around in about three…quarters of an hour。〃 That was efficient； unless； as Marty suspected； Flynn was involved with the market so deeply he had easy access to the stuff： his jacket pocket； for instance。
〃I can't guarantee； of course；〃 he said just to keep the desperation simmering。 〃But I'll do my best。 Can't say fairer than that； can I？〃 〃Thanks；〃 Marty replied。 〃I appreciate this。〃 〃Just bring the cash； Marty。 That's all the appreciation I need。〃 The phone went dead。 Flynn had a knack of getting the last word in。 〃Bastard；〃 Marty said to the receiver； and slammed it down。 He was shaking slightly； his nerves were frayed。 He slipped into a newsstand； picked up a packet of cigarettes； and then got back into the car。 It was lunchtime； the traffic in the middle of London would be thick； and it would take the best part of forty…five minutes to get to the old stamping ground。 There was no time to go back and check on Carys。 Besides； he guessed she wouldn't have thanked him for delaying his purchase。 She needed dope more than she needed him。
The European appeared too suddenly for Carys to hold his insinuating presence at bay。 But weak as she felt； she had to fight。 And there was something about this assault that was different from others。 Was it that he was more desperate in his approach this time？ The back of her neck felt physically bruised by his entrance。 She rubbed it with a sweating palm。
I found you； he said in her head。
She looked around the room for a way to drive him out。
No use； he told her。
〃Leave us alone。〃 You've treated me badly； Carys。 I should punish you。 But I won't； not if you give me your father。 Is that so much to ask？ I have a right to him。 You know that in your heart of hearts。 He belongs to me。
She knew better than to trust his coaxing tones。 If she found Papa； what would he do then？ Leave her to live her life？ No； he would take her too； the way he'd taken Evangeline and Toy and only he knew how many others； to that tree； to that Nowhere。
Her eyes came to rest on the small electric cooker in the corner of the room。 She got up； her limbs jangling； and walked unsteadily across to it。 If the European had caught wind of her plan； then all the better。 He was weak； she could sense it。 Tired and sad； one eye on the sky for kites； his concentration faltering。 But his presence was still distressing enough to muddy her thought processes。 Once she reached the cooker she could hardly think of why she was there。 She pressed her mind into higher gear。 Refusal！ That