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〃You're cheating what you felt；〃 Garraty said。
〃Ah； you're the one faking it； Ray； not that it matters。 All you remember is the Great Romance； not all the times you went home and jerked your meat after whispering words of love in her shell…pink ear。〃
〃You fake your way； I'll fake mine。〃
McVries seemed not to have heard。 〃These things； they don't even bear the weight of conversation；〃 he said。 〃J。 D。 Salinger 。 。 。 John Knowles 。 。 。 even James Kirkwood and that guy Don Bredes 。 。 。 they've destroyed being an adolescent； Garraty。 If you're a sixteen…year…old boy； you can't discuss the pains of adolescent love with any decency anymore。 You just e off sounding like fucking Ron Howard with a hardon。〃
McVries laughed a little hysterically。 Garraty had no idea what McVries was talking about。 He was secure in his love for Jan； he didn't feel in the least self…conscious about it。 Their feet scuffed on the road。 Garraty could feel his right heel wobbling。 Pretty soon the nails would let go； and he would shed the shoeheel like dead skin。 Behind them； Scramm had a coughing fit。 It was the Walk that bothered Garraty； not all this weird shit about romantic love。
〃But that doesn't have anything to do with the story；〃 McVries said； as if reading his mind。 〃About the scar。 It was last summer。 We both wanted to get away from home； away from our parents； and away from the smell of all that cowshit so the Great Romance could bloom in earnest。 So we got jobs working for a pajama factory in New Jersey。 How does that grab you； Garraty？ A pj factory in New Jersey。
〃We got separate apartments in Newark。 Great town； Newark； on a given day you can smell all the cowshit in New Jersey in Newark。 Our parents kicked a little； but with separate apartments and good summer jobs； they didn't kick too much。 My place was with two other guys； and there were three girls in with Pris。 We left on June the third in my car； and we stopped once around three in the afternoon at a motel and got rid of the virginity problem。 I felt like a real crook。 She didn't really want to screw； but she wanted to please me。 That was the Shady Nook motel。 When we were done I flushed that Trojan down the Shady Nook john and washed out my mouth with a Shady Nook paper cup。 It was all very romantic； very ethereal。
〃Then it was on to Newark； smelling the cowshit and being so sure it was different cowshit。 I dropped her at her apartment and then went on to my own。 The next Monday we started in at the Plymouth Sleepwear factory。 It wasn't much like the movies； Garraty。 It stank of raw cloth and my foreman was a bastard and during lunch break we used to throw baling hooks at the rats under the fabric bags。 But I didn't mind because it was love。 See？ It was love。〃
He spat dryly into the dust； swallowed from his canteen； then yelled for another one。 They were climbing a long； curve…banked hill now； and his words came in out…of…breath bursts。
〃Pris was on the first floor； the showcase for all the idiot tourists who didn't have anything better to do than go on a guided tour of the place that made their jam jams。 It was nice down where Pris was。 Pretty pastel walls； nice modern machinery； air conditioning。 Pris sewed on buttons from seven till three。 Just think； there are men all over the country wearing pj's held up by Priscilla's buttons。 There is a thought to warm the coldest heart。
〃I was on the fifth floor。 I was a bagger。 See； down in the basement they dyed the raw cloth and sent it up to the fifth floor in these warm…air tubes。 They'd ring a bell when the whole lot was done； and I'd open my bin and there'd be a whole shitload of loose fiber； all the colors of the rainbow。 I'd pitchfork it out； put it in two…hundred…pound sacks； and chain…hoist the sacks onto a big pile of other sacks for the picker machine。 They'd separate it； the weaving machines wove it； some other guys cut it and sewed it into pajamas； and down there on that pretty pastel first floor Pris put on the buttons while the dumbass tourists watched her and the other girls through this glass wall 。 。 。 just like the people are watching us today。 Am I getting through to you at all； Garraty？〃
〃The scar；〃 Garraty reminded。
〃I keep wandering away from that； don't I？〃 McVries wiped his forehead and unbuttoned his shirt as they breasted the hill。 Waves of woods stretched away before them to a horizon poked with mountains。 They met the sky like interlocking jigsaw pieces。 Perhaps ten miles away； almost lost in the heat…haze； a fire tower jutted up through the green。 The road cut through it all like a sliding gray serpent。
〃At first； the joy and bliss was Keatsville all the way。 I screwed her three more times； all at the drive…in with the smell of cowshit ing in through the car window from the next pasture。 And I could never get all of the loose fabric out of my hair no matter how many times I shampooed it； and the worst thing was she was getting away from me； going beyond me I loved her； I really did； I knew it and there was no way I could tell her anymore so she'd understand。 I couldn't even screw it into her。 There was always that smell of cowshit。
〃The thing of it was； Garraty； the factory was on piecework。 That means we got lousy wages； but a percentage for all we did over a certain minimum。 I wasn't a very good bagger。 I did about twenty…three bags a day； but the norm was usually right around thirty。 And this did not endear me to the rest of the boys； because I was fucking them up。 Harlan down in the dyehouse couldn't make piecework because I was tying up his blower with full bins。 Ralph on the picker couldn't make piecework because I wasn't shifting enough bags over to him。 It wasn't pleasant。 They saw to it that it wasn't pleasant。 You understand？〃
〃Yeah；〃 Garraty said。 He wiped the back of his hand across his neck and then wiped his hand on his pants。 It made a dark stain。
〃Meanwhile； down in buttoning； Pris was keeping herself busy。 Some nights she'd talk for hours about her girlfriends； and it was usually the same tune。 How much this one was making。 How much that one was making。 And most of all； how much she was making。 And she was making plenty。 So I got to find out how much fun it is to be in petition with the girl you want to marry。 At the end of the week I'd go home with a check for 64。40 and put some Cornhusker's Lotion on my blisters。 She was making something like ninety a week； and socking it away as fast as she could run to the bank。 And when I suggested we go someplace dutch； you would have thought I'd suggested ritual murder。
〃After a while I stopped screwing her。 I'd like to say I stopped going to bed with her； it's more pleasant； but we never had a bed to go to。 I couldn't take her to my apartment； there were usually about sixteen guys there drinking beer； and there were always people at her place…that's what she said； anyway…and I couldn't afford another motel room and I certainly wasn't going to suggest we go dutch on that； so it was just screwing in the back seat at the drive…in。 And I could tell she was getting disgusted。 And since I knew it and since I had started to hate her even though I still loved her； I asked her to marry me。 Right then。 She started wrigg