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Miss Jethro nextand saw at once that she had interested him。
〃What do you suspect Miss Jethro of doing？〃 he asked。
〃I suspect her of knowing more of my father's death than she is willing to acknowledge；〃 Emily replied。
The doctor's manner altered for the better。 〃I agree with you；〃 he said frankly。 〃But I have some knowledge of that lady。 I warn you not to waste time and trouble in trying to discover the weak side of Miss Jethro。〃
〃That was not my experience of her at school；〃 Emily rejoined。 〃At the same time I don't know what may have happened since those days。 I may perhaps have lost the place I once held in her regard。〃
〃How？〃
〃Through my aunt。〃
〃Through your aunt？〃
〃I hope and trust I am wrong；〃 Emily continued； 〃but I fear my aunt had something to do with Miss Jethro's dismissal from the schooland in that case Miss Jethro may have found it out。〃 Her eyes； resting on the doctor； suddenly brightened。 〃You know something about it！〃 she exclaimed。
He considered a littlewhether he should or should not tell her of the letter addressed by Miss Ladd to Miss Letitia； which he had found at the cottage。
〃If I could satisfy you that your fears are well founded；〃 he asked； 〃would the discovery keep you away from Miss Jethro？〃
〃I should be ashamed to speak to hereven if we met。〃
〃Very well。 I can tell you positively； that your aunt was the person who turned Miss Jethro out of the school。 When I get home； I will send you a letter that proves it。〃
Emily's head sank on her breast。 〃Why do I only hear of this now？〃 she said。
〃Because I had no reason for letting you know of it； before to…day。 If I have done nothing else； I have at least succeeded in keeping you and Miss Jethro apart。〃
Emily looked at him in alarm。 He went on without appearing to notice that he had startled her。 〃I wish to God I could as easily put a stop to the mad project which you are contemplating。〃
〃The mad project？〃 Emily repeated。 〃Oh； Doctor Allday。 Do you cruelly leave me to myself； at the time of all others； when I am most in need of your sympathy？〃
That appeal moved him。 He spoke more gently； he pitied； while he condemned her。
〃My poor dear child； I should be cruel indeed； if I encouraged you。 You are giving yourself up to an enterprise； so shockingly unsuited to a young girl like you； that I declare I contemplate it with horror。 Think； I entreat you； think； and let me hear that you have yieldednot to my poor entreatiesbut to your own better sense！〃 His voice faltered； his eyes moistened。 〃I shall make a fool of myself；〃 he burst out furiously； 〃if I stay here any longer。 Good…by。〃
He left her。
She walked to the window； and looked out at the fair morning。 No one to feel for herno one to understand hernothing nearer that could speak to poor mortality of hope and encouragement than the bright heaven； so far away！ She turned from the window。 〃The sun shines on the murderer；〃 she thought； 〃as it shines on me。〃
She sat down at the table； and tried to quiet her mind； to think steadily to some good purpose。 Of the few friends that she possessed； every one had declared that she was in the wrong。 Had _they_ lost the one loved being of all beings on earth； and lost him by the hand of a homicideand that homicide free？ All that was faithful； all that was devoted in the girl's nature； held her to her desperate resolution as with a hand of iron。 If she shrank at that miserable moment； it was not from her designit was from the sense of her own helplessness。 〃Oh； if I had been a man！〃 she said to herself。 〃Oh； if I could find a friend！〃
CHAPTER LIII。
THE FRIEND IS FOUND。
Mrs。 Ellmother looked into the parlor。 〃I told you Mr。 Mirabel would call again；〃 she announced。 〃Here he is。〃
〃Has he asked to see me？〃
〃He leaves it entirely to you。〃
For a moment； and a moment only； Emily was undecided。 〃Show him in；〃 she said。
Mirabel's embarrassment was visible the moment he entered the room。 For the first time in his lifein the presence of a womanthe popular preacher was shy。 He who had taken hundreds of fair hands with sympathetic pressurehe who had offered fluent consolation； abroad and at home； to beauty in distresswas conscious of a rising color； and was absolutely at a loss for words when Emily received him。 And yet； though he appeared at disadvantageand； worse still； though he was aware of it himselfthere was nothing contemptible in his look and manner。 His silence and confusion revealed a change in him which inspired respect。 Love had developed this spoiled darling of foolish congregations； this effeminate pet of drawing…rooms and boudoirs； into the likeness of a Manand no woman； in Emily's position； could have failed to see that it was love which she herself had inspired。
Equally ill at ease； they both took refuge in the commonplace phrases suggested by the occasion。 These exhausted there was a pause。 Mirabel alluded to Cecilia； as a means of continuing the conversation。
〃Have you seen Miss Wyvil？〃 he inquired。
〃She was here last night； and I expect to see her again to…day before she returns to Monksmoor with her father。 Do you go back with them？〃
〃Yesif _you_ do。〃
〃I remain in London。〃
〃Then I remain in London； too。〃
The strong feeling that was in him had forced its way to expression at last。 In happier dayswhen she had persistently refused to let him speak to her seriouslyshe would have been ready with a light…hearted reply。 She was silent now。 Mirabel pleaded with her not to misunderstand him； by an honest confession of his motives which presented him under a new aspect。 The easy plausible man； who had hardly ever seemed to be in earnest beforemeant； seriously meant； what he said now。
〃May I try to explain myself？〃 he asked。
〃Certainly； if you wish it。〃
〃Pray； don't suppose me capable；〃 Mirabel said earnestly； 〃of presuming to pay you an idle compliment。 I cannot think of you； alone and in trouble； without feeling anxiety which can only be relieved in one wayI must be near enough to hear of you； day by day。 Not by repeating this visit！ Unless you wish it； I will not again cross the threshold of your door。 Mrs。 Ellmother will tell me if your mind is more at ease； Mrs。 Ellmother will tell me if there is any new trial of your fortitude。 She needn't even mention that I have been speaking to her at the door； and she may be sure； and you may be sure； that I shall ask no inquisitive questions。 I can feel for you in your misfortune； without wishing to know what that misfortune is。 If I can ever be of the smallest use； think of me as your other servant。 Say to Mrs。 Ellmother； 'I want him'and say no more。〃
Where is the woman who could have resisted such devotion as thisinspired； truly inspired； by herself？ Emily's eyes softened as she answered him。
〃You little know how your kindness touches me；〃 she said。
〃Don't speak of my kindness until you have put me to the proof；〃 he interposed。 〃Can a friend （such a friend as I am； I mean） be of any use？〃
〃Of the greatest use if I could feel justified in trying you。〃
〃I entreat you to try me！〃
〃But； Mr。 Mirabel； you don't know what I am thinking of。〃
〃I don't want to know。〃
〃I may be wrong。 My friends all say I _a