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； consciousness； thought； and moral life。
Granting； if it pleases you； that material phenomena may be the causes of mental phenomena； that 'la pensee est le produit du corps entier；' still the two cannot be thought of as one。 Until it can be proved that 'there is nothing in the world but matter； force； and necessity；' … which will never be； till we know how we lift our hands to our mouths； … there remains for us a world of mystery； which reason never can invade。
It is a pregnant thought of John Mill's； apropos of material and mental interdependence or identity； 'that the uniform coexistence of one fact with another does not make the one fact a part of the other； or the same with it。'
A few words of Renan's may help to support the argument。 'Ce qui revele le vrai Dieu； c'est le sentiment moral。 Si l'humanite n'etait qu'intelligente； elle serait athee。 Le devoir； le devouement； le sacrifice； toutes choses dont l'histoire est pleine； sont inexplicables sans Dieu。' For all these we need help。 Is it foolishness to pray for it？ Perhaps so。 Yet； perhaps not； for 'Tout est possible； meme Dieu。'
Whether possible； or impossible； this much is absolutely certain： man must and will have a religion as long as this world lasts。 Let us not fear truth。 Criticism will change men's dogmas； but it will not change man's nature。
CHAPTER XXVII
MY confidence was restored； and with it my powers of endurance。 Sleep was out of the question。 The night was bright and frosty； and there was not heat enough in my body to dry my flannel shirt。 I made shift to pull up some briar bushes； and； piling them round me as a screen； got some little shelter from the light breeze。 For hours I lay watching Alpha Centauri … the double star of the Great Bear's pointers … dipping under the Polar star like the hour hand of a clock。 My thoughts； strange to say； ran little on the morrow； they dwelt almost solely upon William Nelson。 How far was I responsible； to what extent to blame； for leading him； against his will； to death？ I re…enacted the whole event。 Again he was in my hands； still breathing when I let him go； knowing； as I did so； that the deed consigned him living to his grave。 In this way I passed the night。
Just as the first streaks of the longed…for dawn broke in the East； I heard distant cries which sounded like the whoops of Indians。 Then they ceased； but presently began again much nearer than before。 There was no mistake about them now； … they were the yappings of a pack of wolves； clearly enough； upon our track of yesterday。 A few minutes more； and the light； though still dim； revealed their presence coming on at full gallop。 In vain I sought for stick or stone。 Even the river； though I took to it； would not save me if they meant mischief。 When they saw me they slackened their pace。 I did not move。 They then halted； and forming a half…moon some thirty yards off； squatted on their haunches； and began at intervals to throw up their heads and howl。
My chief hope was in the coming daylight。 They were less likely to attack a man then than in the dark。 I had often met one or two together when hunting； these had always bolted。 But I had never seen a pack before； and I knew a pack meant that they were after food。 All depended on their hunger。
When I kept still they got up； advanced a yard or two； then repeated their former game。 Every minute the light grew stronger； its warmer tints heralded the rising sun。 Seeing； however； that my passivity encouraged them； and convinced that a single step in retreat would bring the pack upon me； I determined in a moment of inspiration to run amuck； and trust to Providence for the consequences。 Flinging my arms wildly into the air； and frantically yelling with all my lungs； I dashed straight in for the lot of them。 They were； as I expected； taken by surprise。 They jumped to their feet and turned tail； but again stopped … this time farther off； and howled with vexation at having to wait till their prey succumbed。
The sun rose。 Samson was on the move。 I shouted to him； and he to me。 Finding me thus reinforced the enemy slunk off； and I was not sorry to see the last of my ugly foes。 I now repeated my instructions about our trysting place； waited patiently till Samson had breakfasted （which he did with the most exasperating deliberation）； saw him saddle my horse and leave his camp。 I then started upon my travels up the river； to meet him。 After a mile or so； the high ground on both banks obliged us to make some little detour。 We then lost sight of each other； nor was he to be seen when I reached the appointed spot。
Long before I did so I began to feel the effects of my labours。 My naked feet were in a terrible state from the cactus thorns； which I had been unable to avoid in the dark； occasional stones； too； had bruised and made them very tender。 Unable to shuffle on at more than two miles an hour at fastest； the happy thought occurred to me of tearing up my shirt and binding a half round each foot。 This enabled me to get on much better； but when the September sun was high； my unprotected skin and head paid the penalty。 I waited for a couple of hours； I dare say； hoping Samson would appear。 But concluding at length that he had arrived long before me； through the slowness of my early progress； and had gone further up the river … thinking perhaps that I had meant some other place … I gave him up； and； full of internal 'd…n' at his incorrigible consistency； plodded on and on for … I knew not where。
Why； it may be asked； did I not try to cross where I had intended？ I must confess my want of courage。 True； the river here was not half； not a third； of the width of the scene of my disasters； but I was weak in body and in mind。 Had anything human been on the other side to see me … to see how brave I was； （alas！ poor human nature！） … I could have plucked up heart to risk it。 It would have been such a comfort to have some one to see me drown！ But it is difficult to play the hero with no spectators save oneself。 I shall always have a fellow…feeling with the Last Man： practically； my position was about as uncomfortable as his will be。
One of the worst features of it was； what we so often suffered from before … the inaccessibility of water。 The sun was broiling； and the and soil reflected its scorching rays。 I was feverish from exhaustion； and there was nothing； nothing to look forward to。 Mile after mile I crawled along； sometimes half disposed to turn back； and try the deep but narrow passage； then that inexhaustible fountain of last hopes … the Unknown … tempted me to go forward。 I persevered； when behold！ as I passed a rock； an Indian stood before me。
He was as naked as I was。 Over his shoulder he carried a spear as long as a salmon rod。 Though neither had foreseen the other； he was absolutely unmoved； showed no surprise； no curiosity； no concern。 He stood still； and let me come up to him。 My only； or rather my uppermost； feeling was gladness。 Of course the thought crossed me of what he might do if he owed the white skins a g