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alone here；〃 said the voice。 〃It was warm and friendly in my room but now I'm all alone。〃
AN AWAKENING
BELLE CARPENTER had a dark skin； grey eyes； and thick lips。 She was tall and strong。 When black thoughts visited her she grew angry and wished she were a man and could fight someone with her fists。 She worked in the millinery shop kept by Mrs。 Kate McHugh and during the day sat trimming hats by a window at the rear of the store。 She was the daugh… ter of Henry Carpenter； bookkeeper in the First Na… tional Bank of Winesburg； and lived with him in a gloomy old house far out at the end of Buckeye Street。 The house was surrounded by pine trees and there was no grass beneath the trees。 A rusty tin eaves…trough had slipped from its fastenings at the back of the house and when the wind blew it beat against the roof of a small shed； making a dismal drumming noise that sometimes persisted all through the night。
When she was a young girl Henry Carpenter made life almost unbearable for Belle； but as she emerged from girlhood into womanhood he lost his power over her。 The bookkeeper's life was made up of innumerable little pettinesses。 When he went to the bank in the morning he stepped into a closet and put on a black alpaca coat that had become shabby with age。 At night when he returned to his home he donned another black alpaca coat。 Every evening he pressed the clothes worn in the streets。 He had invented an arrangement of boards for the purpose。 The trousers to his street suit were placed between the boards and the boards were clamped together with heavy screws。 In the morning he wiped the boards with a damp cloth and stood them upright behind the dining room door。 If they were moved during the day he was speechless with anger and did not recover his equilibrium for a week。
The bank cashier was a little bully and was afraid of his daughter。 She； he realized； knew the story of his brutal treatment of her mother and hated him for it。 One day she went home at noon and carried a handful of soft mud； taken from the road； into the house。 With the mud she smeared the face of the boards used for the pressing of trousers and then went back to her work feeling relieved and happy。
Belle Carpenter occasionally walked out in the evening with George Willard。 Secretly she loved an… other man； but her love affair； about which no one knew； caused her much anxiety。 She was in love with Ed Handby； bartender in Ed Griffith's Saloon； and went about with the young reporter as a kind of relief to her feelings。 She did not think that her station in life would permit her to be seen in the company of the bartender and walked about under the trees with George Willard and let him kiss her to relieve a longing that was very insistent in her nature。 She felt that she could keep the younger man within bounds。 About Ed Handby she was somewhat uncertain。
Handby； the bartender； was a tall； broad…shouldered man of thirty who lived in a room upstairs above Griffith's saloon。 His fists were large and his eyes unusually small； but his voice； as though striving to conceal the power back of his fists； was soft and quiet。
At twenty…five the bartender had inherited a large farm from an uncle in Indiana。 When sold； the farm brought in eight thousand dollars； which Ed spent in six months。 Going to Sandusky； on Lake Erie； he began an orgy of dissipation； the story of which afterward filled his home town with awe。 Here and there he went throwing the money about； driving carriages through the streets； giving wine parties to crowds of men and women； playing cards for high stakes and keeping mistresses whose wardrobes cost him hundreds of dollars。 One night at a resort called Cedar Point； he got into a fight and ran amuck like a wild thing。 With his fist he broke a large mirror in the wash room of a hotel and later went about smashing windows and breaking chairs in dance halls for the joy of hearing the glass rattle on the floor and seeing the terror in the eyes of clerks who had come from Sandusky to spend the evening at the resort with their sweethearts。
The affair between Ed Handby and Belle Carpen… ter on the surface amounted to nothing。 He had suc… ceeded in spending but one evening in her company。 On that evening he hired a horse and buggy at Wes… ley Moyer's livery barn and took her for a drive。 The conviction that she was the woman his nature demanded and that he must get her settled upon him and he told her of his desires。 The bartender was ready to marry and to begin trying to earn money for the support of his wife； but so simple was his nature that he found it difficult to explain his intentions。 His body ached with physical longing and with his body he expressed himself。 Taking the milliner into his arms and holding her tightly in spite of her struggles； he kissed her until she became helpless。 Then he brought her back to town and let her out of the buggy。 〃When I get hold of you again I'll not let you go。 You can't play with me；〃 he de… clared as he turned to drive away。 Then； jumping out of the buggy； he gripped her shoulders with his strong hands。 〃I'll keep you for good the next time；〃 he said。 〃You might as well make up your mind to that。 It's you and me for it and I'm going to have you before I get through。〃
One night in January when there was a new moon George Willard； who was in Ed Handby's mind the only obstacle to his getting Belle Carpenter； went for a walk。 Early that evening George went into Ransom Surbeck's pool room with Seth Richmond and Art Wilson； son of the town butcher。 Seth Richmond stood with his back against the wall and remained silent； but George Willard talked。 The pool room was filled with Winesburg boys and they talked of women。 The young reporter got into that vein。 He said that women should look out for themselves； that the fellow who went out with a girl was not responsible for what happened。 As he talked he looked about； eager for attention。 He held the floor for five minutes and then Art Wilson began to talk。 Art was learning the barber's trade in Cal Prouse's shop and already began to consider himself an au… thority in such matters as baseball； horse racing； drinking； and going about with women。 He began to tell of a night when he with two men from Wines… burg went into a house of prostitution at the county seat。 The butcher's son held a cigar in the side of his mouth and as he talked spat on the floor。 〃The women in the place couldn't embarrass me although they tried hard enough；〃 he boasted。 〃One of the girls in the house tried to get fresh； but I fooled her。 As soon as she began to talk I went and sat in her lap。 Everyone in the room laughed when I kissed her。 I taught her to let me alone。〃
George Willard went out of the pool room and into Main Street。 For days the weather had been bitter cold with a high wind blowing down on the town from Lake Erie； eighteen miles to the north； but on that night the wind had died away and a new moon made the night unusually lovely。 With… out thinking where he was going or what he wanted to do； George went out of Main Street and began walking in dimly lighted streets filled with frame houses。
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